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Revelations

Today I am thankful for revelations; religion is going to be a factor in my future relationships.

My friend posted a picture to Facebook.  I'm shocked! 

Why insult the Gods that bring you what you need? 

The following quote is the quickest way to send a Pagan off to buy some rose oil and orris root, bath herself in one while dusting herself with the other before proceeding to hang out at metaphysical fairs knowing she's going to get lucky. 



Maybe I'll just wear my homemade Egyptian Musk. 

I've never met a Pagan that worships the government.  In fact, most Pagans I know are politically agnostic or Libertarian. 

I should know....they worship with me. 

I'll light a candle to Ares and apologize.  I'm too tired to stay up until the hour of Venus and give a sincere and heartfelt apology to the others.  Maybe I can do that on Friday. 

Yeah, originally the archetype of the Gods/Goddesses of Love were not constrained to amorous and sexual encounters.  They were usually the deities of both love and war. 

Perhaps this is a sign and a signal to start hanging out with my Pagan brothers and sisters. 

They understand me. 

Perhaps my friend and I shall meet again in another lifetime. 

Sigh...

The archetypes of the ancient Gods are within all of us, even the Christians.  It's not entirely irrelevant.

Should I ask the coven to cast a negativity binding spell? 

Oh, never mind. 

They're helping me get rid of the stalking.  Apparently, someone broke into the house the other day and no one had the guts to tell me or to call the cops until today.  My eldest daughter was here alone. 

I'm angry!!! 

I believe my daughter.  I also believe that my ex is trying to scare me into delaying the proceedings again.  I am probably much safer away from him.   Staying with him didn't stop the stalking.  I'm going to try severing the cord for good. 

I'm now unsure whether the divorce will stop anything.  I've asked my ex to find out what Shannon wants.  I put all of her mother's things (the handkerchief, some punch bowl set, some honey jar thingy, and any other thing that I was terrified they'd want) in a storage unit in the city where I used to work.  If Shannon is trying to get these things, I ask that she has a third party (not one listed in the Cease and Desist letter) write and ask for them so that she does not get arrested.  HEED THIS: NEVER BREAK INTO MY HOME AGAIN.  

We have surveillance cameras on the property but no one said anything before the tape could be saved.  I'm a little ticked off at that. 

There are other remedies. 

It's been awhile since I invoked Nemesis. 



I don't like casting spells on my own.  The last time I cast a Pagan spell, one of the stalkers died.  I'd prefer to leave that to uninvolved third parties.   They're kinder. 

I've never done a foot track spell. 

I visit cemeteries all the time.  In fact, I put a flag near the resting place of the man who died last time I cast a spell.  Don't make me grab some of that dirt!!  Perhaps a little disease will keep the crazies too weak to break into my home and startle my kids. 

I'm not going to let the stalker drive me crazy.  I'll just do what she fears most, I'll send my alleged legion of demons after her and ask that they expose the truth about her and Doug. 

I'd rather ask that they feed the poor -but- I'm sure they'd like to do something a little more....uh...fun!

They're demons after all! 

It's good to have crazy people think you are the devil. 

But seriously, lay off of my religion. 

Love ya,

S. 

Next Day Edit:

I've been giving a lot of thought to the issue of Shannon (or someone) breaking into our house when we are not home.

Someone is usually home.  It is just that recently, my ex has been promising the children family days with me and him (together as a couple). He, basically, is quite pushy about it and will not take no for an answer.

The day our daughter was scared by someone entering the house, she stayed behind because she was sick.  This was one of those impromptu things he's trying to get us to do as a family.

I've had this experience, too.  We used to have a dog and there would be times when I would hear a door open, hear footsteps, and the dog would go nuts.  I wouldn't let the dog go downstairs and would continue to work.

I had to give the dog away due to the abuse it incurred by my ex.  It bit our daughter after being hassled by my ex.  My mother-in-law threatened to kill it so I had to find it a new home.

I haven't noticed the issue since but then, when I'm alone, I spend a lot of time in my studio and don't hear a thing.

I'm trying to sort this out:

First, there was no damage to any of the locks.  This opens up three possibilities.  I locked the doors myself that day.  I have OCD, you can bet I checked to make sure they were locked.   If someone came in, there are three possibilities;

1.) My ex gave someone a key.
2.) The person has a key.
-or-
3.) The person knows how to use a bump key.

Secondly, this was allegedly an impromptu event.  I was supposed to stay home and work.  My ex expected all of us to go and refused to take NO for an answer until I told him forcing a sick teenager to go was tantamount to child abuse.  The question then becomes how did the person know we were leaving.

On this day, his car wasn't here.  I don't know where it is.  We had to drive my van thus leaving the garage empty (a phenomenon that rarely happens).  How did they know we weren't here?  These are the possibilities;

1.) Someone watched us leave.
2.) My ex told the person we were leaving.
3.) There is a bug in the house.
4.) There is another GPS device on my vehicle (and there may be one on his).

Now, my ex refuses to do much about the stalking.  He blames everyone else.  For awhile I thought I had three distinct stalkers but then, after seeing those family photographs, I realize now that they are all members of the same family!

I have one stalker and many proxies.  The cops say it is my ex.  He swears up and down that it is his sister.  I don't know.

The fact that he doesn't do anything about it makes it seem that the stalking benefits him on some level.  The question becomes why?

1.) They are looking for something.  (what?)
2.) They are trying to scare someone. (who?)
3.) They are here to do something specific (spyware on computer? take pictures?)

Now, here is the weird thing...if my ex is asking his sister to do this, why can't he do it himself?  Why can't he put the spyware on the computers?  Why can't he look for whatever it is he wants?

I need more information.  The very fact that it happens when my ex tries to coerce me into leaving the house with him, makes me highly suspicious.

Maybe I'm not quite out of the woods yet.

Love ya,

S.





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