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As much as I think it is overpriced, takes too long, and isn't fair to taxpayers because corporations profit from it, today I am thankful for public transit.  

He took my van again in the middle of the night.

I guess it is gone for good.

He claims he overslept again, missed his ride and took my van....again.

I doubt his friend is going to give him any more rides into work.

I'm glad I've stopped making appointments because I knew this would happen.

This is why I can't live with him....married or not.

I can't share a domicile with him.

I'm still acting like his wife but not getting any benefits out of this arrangement.

I clean for him.  I cook for him.  He still tries to control the heck out of me.

This isn't right.

Everything I own belongs to him and I'm always giving up what I need to bail him out of a jam.

Yes, I did cancel my classes today because I was violently ill and could barely think.

If I had insurance, I would have gone to the doctor.  I don't, so I had to let the fever break on its own.

I feel a little better.

A friend wanted me to offer her moral support at court today.

I can't go because....my van is gone.

Sigh....

How does one have a stable life when someone so unstable is in it?  

Love ya,

S.

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