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Motive


 
Today I am thankful that I'm making connections about motive.

 
Last night, my eldest daughter paid me a visit. She told me that when her father and I were not home, she often heard the front door open and heard footsteps.

She then heard the front door shut.

It always happened during the day.

It always happened when both of our cars were gone on pre-planned trips.

She never told me because she thought it was in her imagination.

She said that this has gone on as long as she can remember.

This is happening to our other daughters.

This is happening to me.
 
***

On my birthday, I caught Shannon with some kind of key inserted into our front door lock.

It took me six months to convince my ex (our home's co-owner) to change the locks. A week after the locks were changed, someone mangled the new lock on the back door.

When I picked up the phone to call the police department, my ex balked.

Now.....I'm beginning to believe that my ex is giving his sister Shannon a key.

He has claimed to be estranged from his entire family, including this sister, for a decade.
 
He's not.

I'm learning that he has been telling them everything about me.

He calls his mother on Valentine's Day. This year, his mother went so far as to claim that all the threats she makes towards me are due to things my ex says.

And this man thinks I'm coming back....

not a chance.
***
STALKING ALWAYS COMES DOWN TO MOTIVE.

In blogging about my ex ranting and raving about how he didn't want me to get attention because he feared that another man would steal me away,
 
I realized something.

He has to be the stalker. Shannon and his relatives are going along for the ride.

As far back as I can remember, his relatives (including two aunts, two cousins, his mother, and his sister) would call me and tell me that i was not allowed to outperform his sister Shannon.

They never told me why.

My ex did.
 
He's afraid that I will run off with another man.

My ex tells me that his sister's motive is jealousy.

Why would that be?

I've only been in the local papers. She's been in the Enquirer and The Star!

You know you're big when you're in the gossip rags.

She's not jealous!
HE IS!

He is jealous of my male friends and is projecting that on to his sister!!

***

The paradox of this is that his controlling behavior, coupled with the stalking, has driven me away.

I'm not coming back.

***

It gets worse.

The twelve year old told me that the stalking only tends to happen when I quit talking to her dad about it.

Okay.....it's so simple a child can see it.

Love ya,

 
S.

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