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Today I am thankful that my daddy taught me how to understand the words of men.  

In a nutshell, 90% of the things they say equate to "let's have sex."

Okay....I'm joking.

Seriously though....

any fool can call you pretty, beautiful, or gorgeous.

Any man can tell you that he loves you...

and not mean it.

Those three little words mean little.

You must pay close attention to the one who says that he wants "to make you happy"  and loves to "see you smile." 
That's the one who has feelings for you. 


 Yeah....

My friend wrote that to me and I have had trouble breathing since I saw that.

I know.

He's been incredibly patient with me.

By now, we should have connected.

Damn...I must stabilize my living situation.

Connection is the reason men enter into relationships.  They don't like connecting verbally so much as physically.

That is my preferred method of connection as well.

We say more with body language than we can with words.  Our language isn't big enough to say everything that needs to be said.

If I had my own place, this would have progressed differently.  He would have had the opportunity to see whether or not we had compatible energy.

I have dreams that I dare not admit to having.

I didn't have to be celibate for six years.  I don't have to make it seven.

I should grab my friend and take him to Vegas with me this weekend.  I'm debating going.  I should but I have no clue what would happen if I left.

It would be the perfect place to test the waters a little bit.

That way if the energy isn't there, he can leave it in Vegas.

If it is there, we can bring it home.

There is no excuse for me to be sitting on this as long as I have.  I guess it is time for me to take responsibility for my feelings.

There is the baggage.  There is a lot of baggage.  It flippin' follows me around.

You know, I've never seen any of them follow my friend and I.  They follow my exes and I.  They leave my freedom loving anarchist friend and I alone.  Maybe they fear he's packing heat.

I don't know about him.  Trust me, I AM!!!

Now that I know who my stalker really is, how do I get rid of him?

How does one ditch the shadow?

Love ya, 

 S.   

 P.S.  I looked at the calendar, I can't take my friend anywhere next weekend.  It's one of the most important days of the year to a single dad.  It's Father's Day. 






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