I haven't had a lot of time to research the issue.
I did run a Google Search on Borderline Personality Disorder and Demon haunting.
I was hoping to get psychology pages filled with information about people with co-occurring Schizotypal and Borderline co-diagnosis. I found a few but not a lot of real hard research about that issue.
What I found was numerous religious based pages claiming that Borderlines are experiencing a spiritual crisis and are often attacked by demons.
This is dangerous because it will keep people from accessing real time help. Sometimes people with BPD can get so far into their delusion that they can believe such things. Why would you tell someone so down on themselves that they are evil or cursed? That is not helpful! They need to be pulled out of the delusion not sunk further into it.
I don't really know what else to say about the issue. I would caution a relative to reach out to someone claiming to be haunted by demons and try to help them get stable.
Borderlines have a higher than average suicide rate. If Steve really wrote that, it could prove lethal if he believes it and sees no way out.
He could have just said that to get a reaction, too.
Michael could have lied about Steve putting that out there, too.
I don't know.
I don't really have anything more to say about that.
I really hope Michael was lying about Steve claiming that demons are attacking him.
That kind of claim could really make him look like a lunatic. I don't know enough about Steve or the truth of his life to be helpful. In retrospect, I realize that he lied to me about a great number of things.
Due to the sheer number of lies I was told, I truly don't know what to offer to be helpful.
His parents have his back. I'm sure they can help him.
*******
I do have concerns about my ex-husband cyber-stalking a man I dated.
I'm still trying to work on gathering evidence about the stalking.
For 24 years, he blamed his sister for the stalking.
His sister died in February.
It should be over.
It is not.
There is more to the story.
The bug detector goes haywire in my bedroom. I can't find a bug. It could be the wi-fi.
Who knows? I'm getting past the point of caring.
I'm thinking that moving may be my best chance and putting this stalking bull to bed. They say 49% of people end stalking episodes by moving. I'm getting ready to do just that.
I'm tired of it.
*****
I'll write again if I find more information about magical thinking (particularly demonic attacks) and borderline personality disorders. I think that sometimes the information on the internet can do more harm than good. Sure, joining a church and gaining a social support system can help people with BPD but I don't think blaming a supernatural presence is going to be helpful.
I did find information about bilateral stimulation as a treatment for BPD but the results are mixed. If I can find something solid I'll post it here.
I'll also write again if I find a way to help stalking victims protect themselves.
Today I am thankful that I can share the secret to passing as black - play bass.
I'm not joking.
I look Irish. My skin is so translucent that I nearly glow in the sun. My hair is a naturally curly dark auburn.
I am sedentary, so my booty is too big for my taste.
In high school and college, most of the men who would ask me out were black. I think it was because I played bass and sax.
It didn't matter.
I moved to a black part of town and became involved in local politics. At one point, a white educator complained about my activism. I had caught her abusing my neighbor's son. She held him up by his ankles because he was late to class.
I complained. The head of Elementary Education in Denver called me and asked me what in the world I was doing in the black side of town.
She wanted to know if I identified as black.
I didn't know.
I told her the truth.
I was orphaned.
I barely remember my biological father.
My grandmother said he was black.
I don't know.
The photos I have of him show him with curly black hair and dark skin. He could have been anything.
I don't know.
I was pissed off that my ethnicity mattered when I reported child abuse.
I am still angry about that.
*****
I did find my paternal family in the years that passed. They are cracker....horrible....evil...crackers.
They are of Irish descent.
I am NOT one of them. One would think Irish people would know the horrors of discrimination.
I never want to speak to any of them again.
*****
When I was a little girl, I spent a lot of time with my step-father. He told me that growing up, in the 1940's, he would see movie skits picking on Native Americans. He decided to call himself Bob, cut his hair short and pass for white.
He claimed his grandparents were Cherokee. He was in his fifties when he started talking about his childhood and his belief system.
He nearly drank himself to death. He spent a lifetime pretending to be someone he wasn't.
I wonder who he could have been if he hadn't had to be someone else.
*****
I remember talking to my aunt when I was a child. She told me that black children were beautiful. They didn't have the ugly translucent skin we have.
She always wanted to adopt a black child but would talk about how they could never achieve anything because society would not allow it.
That was forty years ago.
My have things changed. We have Beyoncé. We have Rhianna. I drool watching Will Smith's movies. I want to play like Bootsy Collins and if I were ever in the same room with George Clinton, I'd probably faint.
Wanna know a secret? I had such a horrible crush on Alexander O'Neal growing up.
I wonder how much my acceptance of black culture stemmed from my growing up watching BET because grandma said my dad was African American.
I will never know why I like what I like.
I just like it.
That's good enough for me.
*****
What does skin color have to do with success?
Sure....idiot cracker people will hold you down. Dumb cops will search your car and violate your fourth amendment rights...
As I type this I realize why I grew up to be a Libertarian. I just had an Opt Ed piece published demanding that we get rid of stupid laws in order to minimize the number of minorities shot to death by idiotic police officers.
The less stupid laws we have, the less contacts people have to make with the police. The less contacts with police, the less of a chance a community will mourn the loss of a citizen.
Hmmmm......this is therapeutic.
******
Just to be clear, I don't identify as black. I identify as Heinz 57.
I am not Mullato; I am a mutt.
I find it interesting that a woman would be harassed because she identified as a person of color. Her siblings are black. She seems to be trying to further their freedom, their liberty and their potential by educating everyone as to how we are all similar. We are all human. We all deserve the same chance at success.
I don't know that I understand the problem.
Her parents seem to be dysfunctional asshats. I wouldn't talk to them either.
Rachel Dolezal is teaching us something. I'm not sure what the lesson is. Maybe it is a lesson of empathy. She has walked a mile in the shoes of a black woman. She knows things about the experience many of us will never understand.
Black culture IS American culture. Things are changing. We are becoming more integrated with each passing year.
I can't wait to see how my great-grandchildren live. They'll probably laugh at this controversy.
That is my hope.
We all originate from the same source, don't we? Our oldest common mother originated from Africa. Honor her. Honor your ancestors.
Today I am thankful that I can document bizarre things.
I'm getting loads of collect calls from a guy named Humphrey.
I get it....
"Hump Free...."
Six!!! Six 'effing calls. I am also getting texts but I think those are from the answering service telling me about the calls...
YIKES!
This is no longer amusing.
Here is a copy and paste of the number.
1-720-330-2195
I'll do some research when I get home from work and post what I find. It could be a horrible telemarketer.
Love ya,
S.
Edit:
I called the number back and received a recording that claimed to be a jail. The message did not disclose what jail.
It gave another number, +18004838314. I call that and, yet
again, get a message about an offender in jail.
Well.....I don't know anyone in jail.
The only person I know prone to arrest works for a law office and I'm
sure her boss would call me to help post bond.
I blocked both numbers. Blocking is probably the only thing keeping me sane right now.
I did search Google and it doesn't look
legit.
Stalking makes one paranoid. Stalking
has also taught me NOT to answer my telephone. Maybe it saved me a
bunch of heartache this time around.
Stay Safe out there!
Edit a few days later - The calls came from a prison system in Colorado. I sent an email to the prison and they blocked all of my telephone numbers from any call list in any Colorado jail.
Apparently this company has a contract with every jail in Colorado to provide phone service from inmates.
If you are a friend of mine and manage to get arrested in Colorado, I can't bail you out unless you buy me a new phone with a new number.
I won't get your calls.
I just wanted to share this in case anyone else found themselves in the same boat.
I'm still not sure what to make of it. I didn't know my ex-husband was getting emails from my insurer. The cops say that insurance companies don't email to set up inspections, they typically call or send a letter.
I'll post them here just in case anyone else has this issue.
My sense of it is that my ex-husband and/or his family are playing a little game with me. I had a guy come out wanting to take a peek at my house and demanding my ex-husband's contact information twice at the end of May. He had a purple ID tag (which didn't have his name on it only a blurry picture and the name of the company). He didn't have business cards.
See previous post for details. After this drama played out, I learned my ex was stalking a former boyfriend and started getting bizarre prank calls from a guy calling himself Humphrey.
It could be a game nitwits are playing with me -or- the insurance thing could be part of a larger scam targeting other people. It is the latter possibility that is causing me to share.
I'll start with the email the insurance company sent to me telling me that they didn't order an inspection and then copy and paste the emails my ex-husband forwarded to me last week.
Thank you for your patience during the
review of your policy. Our records confirm that we have not ordered
an inspection for your property, nor have we sent an inspector to
your location. We would suggest notifying the local authorities about
the individual who approached you. If the emails from this inspector
reference our company, would you be able to forward them to us for
review?
If you have any questions about this
information, you may contact our Client Service department at 1(888)
***-****. We are available Monday through Thursday from 6 a.m. to
midnight, Friday 6 a.m. t
Sincerelyo 10 p.m. or Saturday 7 a.m. to 7 p.m.
Central time.
The **********Auto & Home Insurance Team
...............................
These are the emails my ex-husband sent to me a week after the man came pounding on the door. He received them two days before the person came to my house. They look legit with the exception that the logos are missing. I did try to track the man's cell phone number to no avail. I haven't figured out how to find the IPs in the Hotmail email but my understanding is that this can be easily done (will update when I do that). In the emails, he says that he wants to see the exterior of the home but once here, he wanted access inside.
I was incredibly lucky my neighbors come to my rescue and asked him to leave.
My name is John, I am with *********
Auto & Home Insurance, there was a storm that came thru the area
on May 15th and we want to do some pre-inspections on some of our
policy holders in the hardest hit areas I will be out in the area
this week, Wednesday afternoon, Thursday and Friday, you do not have
to be present, I just have to look at the exterior of the home to see
if you have any damages from the storm, please let me know if it is
ok to inspect your home for any storm damages, if there is damage I
could also handle setting up a claim if you desire. Please contact me
at the number below or my cell after 4:30 central time at
***-***-****.
Please let me know if it is OK to
pre-inspect your home for any possible damages from the May 15th hail
storm, I stopped by your home today and nobody was home.
We are trying to inspect some of our
policy holders homes in some of the hardest hit areas.
John
...............................
Oh, I did go to LinkedIn trying to see if there was a man with this guy's name, who resembled him, putting himself out there as an insurance agent.
There wasn't a profile like that.
I did find a man with this guy's name on Spokeo. There were no pictures and he lives about three hours away from the insurance company's home office.
If this is a scam, this guy has done his research.
It's probably just someone I know messing with my head.
(Watch this video....once you have the Facebook profile number....copy and paste it into Google search with the word Facebook.....a profile should come up....block anyone who makes you uncomfortable).
Today I am thankful for a place to have a voice just in case mine is silenced.
I apologize for not writing over the past three months. I was working on a project. This project took a lot of work and required scrubbing crazy blogs.
I found a job. The employer only starts at $10 an hour but is paying for my education. Upon achieving licensure I'll get a raise to $15 ($30K). My understanding is that if I jump through enough hoops I'll make $25 ($50K).
I've been seeing a lot of clients who are involved in politics.
I also have been appointed as a publicity director for a non-profit.
I had a very scary set of stalking incidents where my neighbors became involved. The city is helping me start a neighborhood watch due to it. I'll detail it below.
I've been busiest trying to prepare for running for a state house seat. The man I wanted to run against died a few weeks ago. I'm not sure it will be as much fun running against someone else. I admired this man greatly and loved hearing his voice, even though I disagreed with much of what he was saying.
Running for any political office takes a lot of work. It also requires scrubbing crazy fictional blogs and getting over stalker bull.
I have half a mind to write a post about the decedent....but right now, I realize I have to pass along a warning to someone who reads this drivel.
Okay.....
Last night, my ex-husband kept me up talking until 2:00 a.m. about crazy crap.
I only stayed up to get what I could out of it.
My ex-boyfriend is being cyber-stalked. I'll post a video above detailing how to find the stalker's page and block it.
I'll try to come back to beautify this post. I have two recording projects due at midnight tonight, so I'm pretty busy.
*****
I had job interviews scheduled on May 28th and May 29th.
Both days, within an hour of needing to leave for said job interviews I was hassled by a man who looked like Steve (my ex) from a distance.
About 1:00 p.m. on May 28th, a man in a black SUV with red fleet plates starting with 289 pulled up in front of the house and started banging on the front door. I didn't answer it figuring that if it was important, he'd stick a note in the window on the screen door.
When the banging ceased, I spied the SUV hanging out in my driveway. He was there for several minutes.
I was late to my job interview and wound up rescheduling.
The next morning at 8:50, I left to take the youngest to school. I saw the black SUV coming up the block as I was pulling out of the driveway. It was heading east. I needed to pull out of my driveway and go east. The SUV sped up ahead and performed a U-turn one house ahead of my own and by the time I had pulled out of the driveway, he was coming at me. He pulled over onto the sidewalk, ran out of the SUV and started running to my window.
I locked my doors, rolled down the window, and told him that I don't talk to people I don't know do to a stalking situation. I told him to leave me a note stating his business and I'd get back to him.
At this point I continued on my way to take my daughter to school.
It was field day. I lingered. After about ten minutes, I started to head back to the house because I needed to get ready for my job interview.
I took a different route home and noticed the black SUV in the driveway. The man was now taking pictures of the inside of my home through the windows.
Like an idiot, I forgot my cell phone. I had no camera to take the man's photo. I wound up running to the house belonging to the private investigator. The Private Eye came out of the house in his night shorts and ran up the block with me to confront the man taking pictures of my home.
Now.....this is where it gets crazy.
The man claimed to be my insurance agent. He was short. He was muscular. He was bald. He didn't give his name. He didn't have business cards. His face was rounder than Steve's and his eyes were brown. This is important to note for reasons I will detail later.
He showed me an inkjet printed ID. It was purple with a fuzzy picture in the middle. My insurance company name was printed in a white non-footed font (think bolded arial).
His name was NOT on this ID. Only his blurry picture and the name of the company. He showed me a piece of paper. The ink was not clear. It had an approximation of our yearly insurance payment on it. It had our old phone number on it. It had our address on it. It had Michael's old email address handwritten across our address in blue ink.
He demanded Michael's contact information.
I explained that we were divorced. I told him that due to the stalking and telephone harassment, I had changed our phone number. I gave him the new one. I gave him my business email address and phone number telling him that he could reach me there. I also told him that I got the house in the divorce and it would be best for him to speak to me.
He expressed concern about the roof. I told him that it was 20 years old and the insurance company wouldn't pay for repairs. I was working on getting a home equity loan to replace it.
First tip off to his identity- He didn't believe the roof was 20 years old. My insurance company knows how old it is.
Second tip off - I showed him the tree that had caused damage to the gutters. The tree has a huge limb that is hanging there. This tree is owed by the city. I am, by law, not allowed to get the tree trimmed and have to wait for the city to take care of it.
The city is helping me get a loan to repair the damage to the gutter. The insurance agent said that this was not relevant. He said that he was looking at numerous other houses in this city and inspecting for damage due to a spring storm. Every house in this area has a city owned tree. One would think that an agent would find this tidbit of information incredibly relevant as it could potentially reduce pay-outs.
Third tip off - he wanted access to my house and garage. I refused until I could identify him through the insurance company. He was in a hurry. It had to be that day or never. He couldn't give me a point of contact with the insurer to reschedule.
He got inside his SUV when I refused to provide Michael's contact information. I figured my own was relevant.
He sat there for several minutes. I had enough time to walk back to my car parked a block away, drive it to my house and cry silently for quite awhile until he decided to pull out of my driveway.
Forth tip off - I called the insurance company eight hours later to see if my contact information was updated. It wasn't. The agent said that there was no review scheduled on my house. She also said that they don't wear purple ID badges. They are blue. She urged me to contact customer service to confirm whether they ordered an inspection on the house.
Fifth tip off - It took a week for my insurance company to confirm that they had NOT sent anyone to my home for any type of inspection. They urged me to go to the police.
I did...they cannot do anything. The state division of insurance wanted to know about it just to see if thieves are targeting homes pretending to inspect them. My understanding is that I am the only one claiming such an experience. This means that it is probably personal and something unique to my situation.
I'm debating posting the emails I received. I may......
This still didn't scare me......
until last night.
*******
I have asked Michael to stop looking at Steve's social networking crap. Steve had posted that I was lying about the stalking, despite being there when Shannon was staring at us in a coffee shop. He wrote a lot of crazy things before I blocked him. It stressed me out to read the lies. I had several months of peace before the joker that resembled Steve showed up. It was then that Michael revealed that he was stalking Steve's Facebook page...."to keep me safe."
In retrospect, I understand the game Steve was playing. I believe that he was trying to be a pick-up artist (PUA) but failed miserably. He once showed me a file labeled PUA on his computer and told me that it was NLP. I use NLP in my therapeutic practice. I know many real pick-up artists who teach the techniques. One of them made mention that he thought that Steve was misusing the techniques after he made his last post to my Facebook page.
Steve was my friend for over three years. He could have had anything he wanted outside of using PUA techniques. If it is true he wanted me, then it was the PUA techniques that chased me off. If he didn't want me, then the techniques did their job of making me despise him. He told me once that he bought a book of games to play with me. I want to know who was dumb enough to sell him that. I also want to know why that joker is still alive. Narcissistic men are pulled into PUA. Narcissistic men tend to be dangerous.
The PUA coach said that negs are not supposed to be insults and should end once you've entered into a real relationship. My coach friend said that many newbies make that very same mistake. Steve's negs were designed to control me and get me away from poltics and my friends. They were designed to ruin my reputation.
It took longer for the PUA to get me to understand the choking and raping thing. Apparently there is a jerk running around teaching men how to abuse women and get away with it. This asshat teaches that choking women makes them submissive (???). Steve choked me and dragged me into his bedroom. The next day, he sent me an email expressing fear that he would go to jail.
This is a misuse of the technique where a man gets a consent email from the woman he was with. Rather than respond to the email saying that I had a good time (because I didn't), I wrote to Steve saying that I had to see a shrink due to what happened. This was when Steve started lying about me on Facebook claiming that I called him a bad boyfriend. Under social pressure, I gave him his consent via Facebook when I wrote that a bad boyfriend could mean many different things.
The same game played out at the Phish concert. Steve actually had the unmitigated gall to ask if I were submissive yet and bragged that I got divorced over him.
I think the consent email was replaced by him telling me to go to Facebook with a scripted paragraph about how great he is and how I am a horrible communicator. I refused. I'm thinking he was worried about being arrested and if I went public with the claim that I couldn't communicate, it would look like a misunderstanding.
I think if I had posted that, it would have been a means of giving him consent. He knows he was being abusive. When I refused to post the script he sent to me, he ran to Facebook telling everyone that I was abusive towards him.
He also liked to pull the Non-Violent Anarchist card. It was okay for him to choke me, berate me or lie about me -but- if I dared defend myself, I was a fake, fraud Libertarian because I was violent! Um.....if there is an attack on my home....I'm grabbing my gun. Sorry...you can call me anything you want just as long as my family is safe.
I am a Pagan. People often claim that I get my revenge other ways. Steve must know this based on what I am being told. What Steve doesn't know is that I've been too darn busy to light black candles. I can't have that kind of energy around me.
Spells are draining. They mess with the energy of the atmosphere. I can only do one a month, if that. Maybe I cast one a year when I feel I need an energy boost. If I am trying to help kids in the community, get a killer put in prison, keep our community safe and help spread prosperity, it would seem that I have enough spells to cast for the next year.
Why would I waste a month cursing a jerk?
Seriously......LOL- I find the word seriously funny because many people don't know whether or not to take this whole witchcraft thing seriously in the first place.
Seriously.....we reap what we sow. If some dork is upset because life isn't going his way perhaps he can start acting like a human being and stop trying to see how he can take advantage of others. He needs to wipe that sociopathic smirk off of his face - it betrays him.
*****
Last night......
Michael was going on and on about the stalking. I caught him in lie after lie. I told him to get therapy or get out.
He has to be the stalker. I caught him stalking me. A city attorney called me saying that he was stalking me. A friend of the mayor caught a man that looks like him stalking me. He has no concern for the safety of our children in this house. He knows they are safe. How would he know that if he were not the stalker?
But then....it was pointed out to me that the last stalker looked like Steve. Then he went on to tell me the things that Steve was allegedly posting on to Facebook.
Who looks like a stalker now? Oh my....
I told him not to tell me or else I'd get my INFJ rage going on. Michael, sadly, continued to tell me.
I am NOT amused. I don't know if Michael is telling the truth. I'll share below.
Steve, allegedly, wrote that he's being attacked by demons. He sounds more and more like a schizotypal danger with every passing day. First fairies....now demons....UGH! Steve refused to return my huge witchcraft historical book. There is an entire chapter devoted to this. Perhaps he can do a ritual to feel better? Perhaps he can find sanctuary in a Christian church? Haldolworks, too.
Any demons attacking him are of his own creation. And the PUA demon is a biggie. There are PUA hate groups out there for a reason. There is no such thing as an alpha male. I do believe in insincere males. I have no time for men like that.
I can see how someone with Borderline Personality Disorder could be misdiagnosed with Narcissistic Personality Disorder, have a criminal record, and fall prey to the PUA industry. If you're going to do that...stick to Ross Jeffries. At least he can teach you how to keep her if you want her.
Stay away from Julien Blank or Blech or whatever the hell he calls himself. He's selling a twisted form of domestic violence training that is going to get you arrested someday. What a name! He's got a girl's given name and a last name that means "empty" or "icky." This dude is disgusting. Seriously.....
The only way I'd buy something from this jerk is if he promoted voodoo dolls of himself.
*******
I found it weird that Michael admitted to cyber-stalking Steve around the time I'm trying to figure out why things are getting worse.
I began to fear that Michael was trying to implicate Steve in the stalking. I'm going to debunk that while I can.
The last guy at my home was a little bit taller than Steve. His face was rounder. He was really bald (alopecia bald not the shaving the head stubble-type bald). He had brownish eyes.
I want to put this out there....he was NOT Steve. He also had access to information that Steve would not have.
Okay....hope this helps someone if I turn up six feet under. Dead people cannot speak to the nuances of mis-identification.
******
I have seen a man who looks like Steve lurking around my office. I have not gotten close enough to see the color of his eyes. It could be a coincidence. I don't have enough information at this time to do more than document this.
Steve works across the street from me. I have to drive by his office building is on the way home as the road leads directly to my house and bypasses most of the major traffic jams. It is possible for our paths to innocently cross, too.
I don't know....I really don't know what the heck is going on.
Oh, and there was damage done to the light fixture in my office. I haven't had a chance to ask the landlord about that.
I'll write more later if I can.
********
I hope life is well for you. Maybe I can try to find something useful to share to other stalking victims so that they do not stay victims.
Let me give that some thought. I think that this is the most helpful post I've ever read: http://www.esia.net/safety_tips.htm. Hope it helps someone.
Love ya,
S.
P.S. I never told you how I figured out that Steve was playing PUA. I found out by Googling some of the lines he used and found chat pages online.
Sigh.....
My advice to aspiring PUAs is this...be yourself, you're hotter that way.
