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Migraines


Today I am thankful that I had a headache.  

It allowed me to behave myself.

Luckily, my friend doesn't seem to know what really causes migraines, lest he may be tempted to offer his services again.

I don't know what the heck is wrong with me.

Someone gets me feeling happy and loving.

Then I get a headache.

This makes no sense.

None...

I never had an issue with migraines until my ex started sleeping in the basement.  They say that people with high sex drives get migraines when they go without.

For many years, I drove around with migraine meds.  If I let the migraine go too long, I wind up with vertigo.  It didn't quite get to that point tonight.  If it did, I'm not sure how I was going to get home.

I'm going to have to start carrying migraine and vertigo meds everywhere I go now.  The problem with the vertigo meds is that they make me too tired to drive.  I'm going to have to come up with a contingency plan.

I don't think that people are made to live a celibate lifestyle.  This is NOT going to work much longer.

On the bright side, I made it home okay.

It took about five years for the migraines to stop.  I think when I became to busy to miss sex, the headaches went away.

I had a doozy of a migraine for a couple of days following my friend's dramatic blocking moment.   It went away after three days.  I stopped crying.  I was over it.

I think he's over that.

I think he apologized.

He chalked it all up to stupidity.

I don't know what to think.

He smokes.

He tried to hide it.

It's funny.

I'm allergic to tobacco smoke.

This is going to get interesting.

No one is perfect.

I'll have to grow up a bit.

If I want to smoke, I know my ex would sign those divorce papers.  Do I want to taste that disgusting crap just for a taste of freedom?

It's tempting....it is very tempting.

Wow....

And, I changed my mind about the other fish.

I should stick with people I can stand.

I'll stick with someone who doesn't throw up in my car.  My driving is scary.  It doesn't phase this guy, too much.  He just hangs on for dear life and tells me to avoid hitting other vehicles.  He also gives me directions.  That's cool.  I always get lost when I drive.  It is how I have so many adventures.  I guess I'll have to take up mountain climbing or something now.

Oh, how nice....the Goddess sent me a navigator!  Maybe it is time I stop getting lost and freaking everybody out.

Love ya,

S.


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