Creative Payback

Today I am thankful for creative paybacks.

I am a femi-nazi with money. I don't know how long I'll have money but I have some now.

I buy my own drinks because I can.

I'll buy my companion's drinks because it's obnoxious.

Now, he's taken to buying my drinks and getting quite creative in the process.

Yesterday, he sent me off to retrieve something I left in my car while he paid for my drink.

It was cute.

We had a lot of flooding in my area over the past few days. I wanted to keep my phone by my side so my relatives could call if they needed my help.

I left my phone in the car but refused to go get it because I knew that he'd get sneaky and pay for my drink.

I told him he'd get sneaky if I left.

His reply was 'just let me pay for the drink.'

Okay....he's a man.

He's not a narcissistic man.

He'd an old fashioned one.

I relented. He bought my drink as we sat waiting for a lecture to start.

The fun part about that was that I spent the entire evening thinking about things I could give him in exchange for the drinks he's been buying lately.

I want to be fair about it.

Taking without giving is absolutely NO FUN at all!

At first, I thought about a gold plated kilt pin I spied on a Scottish website. It is of a rampant lion and it reminds me of my Leo friend.

It's not cheap. It's about $350. They have a pewter one for under $100 but my friend, with his heart of gold, must get the gold one. Pewter and silver just don't fit his personality. It's gotta be gold.

If I put away $5 everytime he buys a $5 drink, I'll have the money saved in six months to a year.

Yeah.....

sigh....

Yes, the kilt pin is nice. I can imagine him wearing it.

I did. I visualized him wearing it.

It was good.

Then, of course, my mind wondered to what I could do beneath the kilt.

Then I became giddy.

Then I lost about 50 IQ points

-and-

I lost the ability to communicate.

When I told him that I has having trouble communicating with him because he was an attractive man, he looked at me in disbelief.

Sigh....

I think I scared him away.

Sigh.....

Maybe I need a dummy

-or-

I need to become hot enough to stun a smart man into temporarily acting like a dummy.

Life IS a lot of fun; payback more so.

Love ya,

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