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Block Smashing Days


 
 
Today I am thankful for block smashing days. 

I woke up and all of the idiotic things that were in the way of my progress went away. 

I found a short term therapist for PTSD help; I think this is why I am having intimacy blocks.  I'll be fixed up in no time. 

A little EMDR...

A little Gestalt therapy...

and the anxiety from the stalking will be a thing of the past.

I'll be good as new.  

I found that one of my previous doctors will help me with girly stuff.  My insurance situation is iffy and it is darn difficult to find one willing to take a patient without reliable access to health insurance.  This one will take my dough. 

Things are looking up! 

Hooray!!!

Then my momentum died in the afternoon. 

I learned that the divorce documents had an error, so we have our official divorce document signing party at 12:30 on Thursday.

Everything was going my still way, though...

until around 1:00. 

I got an email from my ex with a horribly mixed message.  He wants to reconcile but he knows that I'm happier with someone else.

Huh? 

That is one minor block. 

I decided that it is best to focus on something else. 

Okay....

My to-do list is a mile long.  I have to build a resume.  I have to build a website.  I have to start selling products online. 

Then....I tried to work on my Flash Website!  UGH!!! 

The site crashed!!! 

UGH!!!

I get to start over now. 

That's a huge block! 

Thank goodness I can get back to work. 

Things are not going so well now. 

I'll keep plugging away. 

Love ya,

S.



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