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Imaginary Sane Men



Today I am thankful that "he" doesn't exist; sane men must be figments of my imagination. 

No more....

I'm tired. 


No more lying jack wipes. 

No more greedy Gusses. 

No more men who compare me to my seventeen year old self.

No more men who want me for a mistress. 

No more stalkers, liars, weirdos, pedophiles, or wanna be musicians.  Yes, I was tempted to drag one guy out to a vocal coach.  He's going to kill his voice using that technique!!! 

Do I love him enough for that? 

Nope..I don't have the energy to play with that. 

It's a shame.  I know a lot of agents.  He sucked too much for the introduction. 

Worse, I swear off all those jack wipes that buy NLP seduction tapes.  Really?  I know some of the morons that manufacture that crap; they live in their mother's basements!! 

You know, guys....uh.....you can't put a woman into a trace without going into one yourself. 

I'm a pro. 

You're dead in the water with me. 

My voice is better than saltpeter.  You have to be pretty freakin' hot to get away with pulling that on me. 

There was one guy.  He was hot.  He tried to hypnotize me to end my separation by signing the divorce papers so we could go off and screw.  Then I learned he was married and had no intention of getting divorced...

sigh....

so sad. 

Professional hypnotists are HOT!  He is..... but he's not mine. 

Today was one of those days where I realized that I am happy to be celibate. 

Stay away. 

*****

I found a wonderful man, whom I love.  He can seem perfect for me.  He, by himself, is a wonderful, fun, and dynamic human being.  He just defends and spends a lot of time in the company of men who have been convicted of engaging in adult sexual activities with children.

I have four daughters and a granddaughter.  I cannot have those kind of men in my life.  If sex offenders are connected to a man who may become my significant other, they are easily put into a position of harming the children in my life.

It hurts to have to push him away.

So, for the final time, I have to realize that Steve and I will never be a couple. 

*****

I may as well give my ex a reprieve.  If I stay married to him, he doesn't have to pay me alimony/child support and I don't get to date. 

It's not worth it. 

My ex doesn't want sex. 

I guess, I don't either -  because it means putting up with MEN!

I give up. 

Men are weird!!

I'd rather have my guitars. 

Wow...

I did ask for the divorce agreement, so I could sign it.  I truly doubt it will be forthcoming. 

I'm too old to play with dorks. 

I'm going to have to wait until I find one with a compatible brand of weirdness.

Love ya,

S. 


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