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The Shaman

Today, yet again, I am thankful for my Shaman friend.  

I'm a little spooked out.....

but okay, I'll go with it.

There are three men before me.

I'm supposed to open up to one.

That means that I must tell him what is going on.

I don't even know.  I have a pretty good idea but I'm not sure.

Maybe I should tell him.  I think he knows, too.  I mentioned that my stalker was my sister-in-law and he scoffed.

Everyone does that!  Everyone is sure my ex is the stalker.

Yes, I'm sure my ex has something to do with it but it is my sister-in-law's face that I keep seeing.  It is her Twitter account that brags about hanging out by my house, she was the one I caught trying to break into the house, and it is her fiance that harassed me in the street.  As far as I know, my stalker is my sister-in-law.  

I was also told to run away from the two Scorpios.

I must examine why one of them keeps coming back whenever he has a personal crisis yet is never there for me.

Actually, all of the Scorpios I've ever dated do that.  They get arrested, they call.  They get fired, they call.  They get cheated on, they call.  They can't get laid, they call and get frustrated.  Their mommies convince them that I'm Satan incarnate, they leave only to come back when she won't spoil them rotten  (okay, that was only Michael and his mommy).

I'm tired.

When I have the answer as to what went wrong with my other past relationships (all of them Scorpios) then I can have a relationship with someone new.

Yeah....I can tell you what went wrong!  It's me!!  I'm too ambitious to be happily tied down like a dog all day!


Just teasing.

Okay....

I'm supposed to take a couple of days to focus on love; loving my fellow human beings, loving myself, and loving the person presented on my path.

Or, I can throw myself into work and ignore men for awhile.

Does anyone have a good lead for a job?

Let's see what happens tomorrow.

Love ya,

S.

P.S.  I am really hurting today.  My friends had a young friend die a couple of weeks ago and they are raising money to help his family.  I didn't think I knew the man but I tried to promote their fundraiser out of love for my friends.

Do you know who he was?

He was the realtor trying to help me prepare for my divorce by getting the house ready to sell.

This hurts.  He had a common name.  I had no clue that I had met him.

It is truly a small world.

The lesson for me is to show gratitude the moment someone shows me a kindness.  If I hesitate, that person may not be there to thank.

Love as much as you can as long as you can.

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