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A Place to Document the Abuse

 
Today I am thankful for having a place to document the abuse.


I was trying to speak to Mike to work out the details of the separation.  I want to know who lives where, when we should officially separate, and what we need to do before that happens. 

He started off talking about how he didn't want me to work.  He told me that he didn't like the way other people treated me.  He didn't like them making me carry heavy boxes.  Then, I'd come home and have to carry heavy boxes. 

I don't know. 

The conversation turned to the fact he wants me to have a traditional job first before filing for a divorce.  I told him that I was afraid to hold a job when he lived with me.  He likes to meddle with my work.  He threatens to take spark plugs out of my car.  He yells at me when I talk to my boss and he recruits friends and family to harass me at work.  I've lost quite  few jobs due to his shit. 

When I told him that I was terrified to hold a job he knew about.  He started to rage. 

He said:

"You don't want to work!" 

Sigh...

I want to work.  I don't want to deal with the stalking and harassment.  In fact, I work now.  I clean up after him.  I make stuff to sell online.  I work as a community activist and build websites for political campaigns.  I'm trying to build a skill set so that I am employable. 

How dare he call me lazy!

I'm thinking he was the one that told people that I didn't want to work.  A city attorney told me he said that numerous times.  His mother told me he said that.  Maybe he did.   It's just like a narcissist to refuse to let you hold a job because he fears you will leave him while running around claiming you are too lazy to work. 

So...now I know exactly what I'm dealing with. 

It gets weirder. 

He's trying to convince me that his sister is stalking me without his knowledge or consent.  I do not believe it. 

Every time he claims to confront her, weird things happen.  He'll say he called her and she'll try to break into the house.  He'll contact her on Facebook and she'll Tweet that she is hanging around my house.  He'll write about what happens on Facebook and the back door lock gets mangled. 

We had an agreement that he was NOT to do anything to bring her attention back to me.  He was not to contact them in relation to me. 

Well, today he told me that he went to Facebook and wrote that Shannon and Doug were stalking me.  He detailed what they did in the past two years and claimed that I was the one who described what they looked like and could identify both of them and their vehicles from photos. 

Members of his family are Facebook friends.   Now, they are talking about breaking Shannon and Doug up.   Guess who is going to get the blame for that?

He did this on Tuesday.  It usually takes Shannon about ten days to get around to threatening me after someone brings her attention back to me. 

I know what has to be done. 

I can't believe he still thinks he's going to stay married to me. 

Yikes. 

Love ya,

S. 



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