Today I am thankful for recognizing my own stupidity.
How in the world can I read the body language of politicians while being confused by my ex's body language?
I can tell when the Governor lies.
I can tell when my ex lies, I just assume I am wrong.
Truth be told, he IS a liar.
He acts like a liar.
He questions me when I ask him a question about what he knew about the stalking.
Then he rages at me if I ask the question again.
Then he'll leave the room if I ask a third time.
He refuses to tell the truth.
He's involved in the stalking.
Yet for some stupid reason, I tend to believe him.
Goodness gracious, I'm a dolt.
We went to hire another attorney today for the purposes of getting a restraining order against Shannon -and- my ex balked.
He balked just like he did when I picked up the phone to call the police after discovering the newly installed back locks were broken.
So, there will be no restraining order.
Okay....whatever.
The cops are right, he's the stalker.
That still doesn't explain why the city audit supervisor harassed and lied about me -nor- does it explain the cops harassing me between 2008-2011 by sitting outside of my house day and night.
I guess their harassing me led them to discovering my stalker. In fact, it was a friend of the mayor's son who told me I was being stalked by a dark haired man.
People involved with the city were the ones that pointed it out for me. They're the ones that told me who was behind it.
I was oblivious to it before that day, so.... I guess their behavior is a wash.
I may owe an apology to one lawyer I chewed out -but- she did break the law (and continues to do so by the way). Still she was telling the truth when she said my ex was abusing and stalking me.
I may apologize for hypnotizing her to be honest. She's that, even if she's prone to padding the city budget with illegal fines.
As far as the stalking, I guess I know what I've got to do.
Drat....
It took writing about that ol' zombie love to get me to think about it. My old flame belongs in my past. He's like a teddy bear; he's a relic from my childhood. I'll be damned if some fat old fart is going to stalk the heck out of him due to jealousy of the innocent relationship we had as kids.
The stalking crap angers the holy heck out of me.
That really does make my blood boil!
It is high time that I put an end to that in a heartbeat.
Don't mess with a woman's first love. Leave him alone. Keep him in the past and all will be well.
Don't mess with her best friend either. Leave him alone and don't give her a reason to feel like she owes him comfort. That'll only lead to more jealousy.
The more I think about it, the more I realize that my ex wants me to screw someone else.
Why else would he create constant situations where other men would feel the need to protect me?
My ex is just trying to get me laid, isn't he?
If he weren't, he wouldn't let his family, friends, and former workmates at the city harass me.
I will engage in a new relationship when a man I want and I are ready to do so. My ex won't figure into the equation. The stalking won't figure into the equation. I'm going to take care of this once and for all!
Yes...I found a solution.
I went gun shopping today. My Senator has inspired me to get a concealed carry. I think she tried to use reverse psychology on me.
Guns are bad, Siegfred. Don't get one, Siegfred. They are evil. They are horrible... blah...blah...blah...
Controlling stalking men and controlling liberal politicians are evil.
Guns are just metal.
Besides, I learned to shoot as a kid.
I learned to clean my daddy's gun as a toddler.
I love the smell of gun grease.
It's time.
I'll do it.
I'm tired.
I'm off to sell a few things to pay that permit fee.
Love ya,
S.