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Sleeping Pills

Today I am thankful for sleeping pills. 


I know it sounds stupid -but- I'm a little ticked off.

I'm in love with a guy named Steve who has more ethics in his little finger than I have anywhere.

I'm trying to divorce a stranger named Mike.

I'm dreaming of an ex named Thomas.

They are not sex dreams, they are dreams that make me worry about him.

I'm dreaming of some kind of diary or correspondence he's writing.

I hate the Thomas getting hurt dreams the most.

So, this time, I'm going to medicate them away.

If Ol' Tom still remembers my nickname and stumbles on this stupid thing.

Remember to pull the rip cord.

Remember your inhaler.

Remember to breathe.

Remember to get snow tires on your car.

Remember to stay away from the crazy ladies (like me).  

I think that ought to cover it!

You're supposed to live a long, long time.  You used to tell me that you saw us as old people.  Okay...I'm holding you to that.

Love ya...

That's why I stay away.

I drove ya nuts.  If we'd have stayed together, you'd be driven to an early grave.

Stick around.  This place is pretty darn fun.

I'll do free hypnosis for you....but nothing else.  I terrorized you as a youth.  You've done your time.  Go out and have that fun!

You've been through hell and back.  You can do anything.

Cheerio!

S.

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