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Agreements

Today I am thankful for agreements. 


My ex agreed to divorce me.

This is a decision born out of fear of his sister and her stalking.  She came to the house and tried to break in. I only learned it was her the other day.

I had tweeted about going to First Friday to see a couple of my friends.  I didn't feel well, so I stayed home. It was during the time that I was supposed to be gone that she tried to get in the house with a key.

This stalking business has left me in poverty.  I fear working because she tracks me down and harasses my colleagues.

I fear she will kill me.  She owns a gun.

He fears that if she kills me, he's going to go to jail.

We realize that I truly need a new last name.

There are still a couple of points up in the air.

I don't know what to do about the house.

I fear living here.

He wants the kids to stay here so they can get scholarships for school but he can't care for them.

I'm praying for a job and an answer.  I'm hoping I can earn enough money not to need alimony.

Let's see how it goes.

Love ya,

S.


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