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Astrologers & Manifestation Journals

 
 
Today I am thankful for astrologers and manifestation journals.


Usually....astrologers scare the holy crap out of me. 

Okay, they still do. 

When I think I want someone, I usually consult with an astrologer so that person will tell me to run for the hills.   Usually, the guy is a Scorpio.  Usually, the astrologers tell me to run off.  I never listen.  Then my life sucks for several years as I untangle myself from the messes that I find myself in. 

I thought...heck...this time, he's a Leo. She'll tell me that he'll make me do all the hunting while he goes out searching for other prey.  She'll tell me to run off and then I have my excuse to tell this stupid thing in the middle of my chest to shut-up.

No....uh...she didn't tell me to run off. 

It's a perfect match.  She said that it may not last forever but it will not hurt us to take the chance.  Hurting him is the reason I am avoiding him.  She told me to go for it.

I don't know...I'm boring and prissy and old and saggy and baggy and overweight....

I'll post it below just to show you how nuts this is for me.  There is no way in heck this can possibly be true.  Is it? 

No...it has to be a delusion!!   

Holy unicorn rainbow poo!!

NO!!  

Maybe, she just doesn't like me moping about where I'm at and is trying to light a fire under my arse so she made it all up. 

I mean, that stuff is not true...is it? 

On top of that, I have this little manifestation journal.  I wrote what I wanted to bring into my life.  This was what I thought the perfect guy would be like two years ago.

Honest, loving, empathetic, easy to talk too, healthy, upbeat, artistic, realistic, kindhearted, handsome, thoughtful, romantic, lets me be myself, understands my work ethic, faithful, won't sign me up for welfare without telling me, intelligent, accepting, supportive, patient, calm, curious, sexy, physically active, adventurous, likes kids, has a sense of humor, likes music, between the ages of 40 and 45, blue eyes, wears glasses
 
Holy crap....
 
It describes my friend to a "T".....especially the welfare stuff.  He hates entitlements. 
 
The best part is that I like bald guys....
 
and you know... 
 
he is exactly what I envisioned. 
 
I even drew a picture but I don't have a scanner anymore, so you're out of luck.  If I can get one, I'll upload it. 

This is surreal. 
 
It's one thing to envision your dream guy...but what do you do with him when he shows up in real life?
 
and you still co-habit with an ex for the sake of your kids because the housing market sucks? 

Maybe I need to envision my ex buying me out of my share of the house and letting the perfect person for him move in. 

I can't put anyone through my drama, no matter how perfect he may seem to be.  I've got to get this resolved first.  Instead of daydreaming about love and all that.  I should be daydreaming of a solution!
 
I can't help but wonder if maybe there is something to this law of attraction business after all. 

Maybe I'm just seeing what I want to see...

Or maybe my friends are trying to get me to get the heck out of dodge. 

I don't know. 

This is weird. 

It is surreal. 

I can't sleep.  I can't eat.  I can't think of anything except how dumb I am for letting myself feel this way. 

This can't be real. 

It can't. 

Maybe I need to run off to....hmmmmm.......

who am I kidding? 

I really have no where to go. 

Love ya,

S.   


This is the horriblescope:

219 Conjunction Sun - Mercury

Positive aspect: Good understanding between the two persons and intellectual interests in common, the same type of curiosity. They are made to go well together, to appreciate each other.

215 Conjunction Sun - Venus

Positive aspect: It's an excellent aspect. They go well together, they love each other, and feel good, happy and radiant in each other's company.

147 Conjunction Venus - Mars

Positive aspect: This is a union that is particularly based on physical understanding, passionate love.

78 Trine Mercury - Saturn

Positive aspect: If Mercury is looking for a mother or father in the spouse, then this aspect is very favorable. Saturn will give a lot on the intellectual level and in life in general.

76 Conjunction Venus - Uranus

Positive aspect: Union or love will be very strong, not at all intellectual, but sensual and full of romanticism and originality.

74 Conjunction Jupiter - Uranus

Positive aspect: This union can be favorable, if the two mutually respect each other. They both like their independence, their freedom of thought and action.

69 Sextile Mercury - Mars

Positive aspect: They have been well selected. They understand each other, like to discuss things with each other and take joint initiatives. Great intellectual understanding.

65 Conjunction Venus - Pluto

Positive aspect: Great passionate affair, most certainly not lasting but pleasant to experience, whatever about the future.

38 Trine Saturn - Pluto

Positive aspect: Favorable union.




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