The Folly of the Anarchy King

Today I am thankful for those moments of clarity one experiences away from chaos.

I finally realized the identity of the dork muffin who is attacking me online. He is one of Steve's Facebook friends. I heard that Steve had been posting out right lies about me. I saw that he claimed I abused him. I saw that he claimed I called him names. My friends told me other things; I allegedly badmouthed Steve's mother. I am James Holmes. I am lying about being stalked. They tell me that he wrote a lot of other garbage.

Most of what my friends said mirrored those emails Steve sent to me where he claimed I was married and had numerous fuck buddies on the side, that I'm lying about the stalking......gosh....what else? There is so much. I stopped reading at the 27th email I received after I left him. Each one contained a new allegation.

I NEVER want to see him again.

I LOVE him but I DO NOT want to deal with him again. He is abusive.

After we started dating, Steve would attack my credibility and call me a fraud. This little turkey friend of his is doing the same thing.

If he is putting this little jerk up to harassing me, I will get a restraining order against Steve. This is the second man he's had do that. I had to block a longtime friend who he was using as a go-between.

I'm getting angry.

The last hope Steve has to contact me is to return my books but he'd be wise to never say a word to me.

I know he's a fraud.

Do you know why?

He bills himself as the Anarchy King.

If you know anything about the theory, Anarchists do not believe in masters or slaves nor kings nor subjects.

So....when Steve wrote that I was a fake and a fraud....he was talking about himself.

I will never again deal with people who try to make me explain who I am or what I do. People who have time for that don't really do anything.

If you're too lazy to do a Google search, I have no time for you.

The Anarchy King realization is one of those ones that has me smacking my head wondering why I gave this guy the time of day.

I left him because he played a lot of head games and told me to shut up when I tried to talk about it.

I want to curse him because he's trying to ruin my reputation online. Luckily, no one believes him.

If he keeps having his little a-hole buddies bother me, he will see me again.....in county court!

Love ya,

S.

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