Today I am thankful for my support network.
I was asked to write an article for a political publication. Oh gosh...how does one distill a year's worth of political hijinks to a mere 500 words?
That's not going to happen.
I have an agenda.
That agenda is exposing evil political gossip that is costing taxpayers a pretty penny.
That's not going to happen.
I have an agenda.
That agenda is exposing evil political gossip that is costing taxpayers a pretty penny.
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This is getting interesting.
If it works, I expect hate mail.
I want to take the gossip toy away from a political machine.
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I'm getting invites to real political parties and events now.
I think my political buddies are trying to help me get over my broken heart.
If it works, I expect hate mail.
I want to take the gossip toy away from a political machine.
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I'm getting invites to real political parties and events now.
I think my political buddies are trying to help me get over my broken heart.
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My friends are sweet.
I even befriended a comedian who is doing his best to keep me laughing.
He's a cross between Rodney Dangerfield and Eddie Murphy.
He had a stalker chick, too.
He's given some excellent ideas for keeping Shannon out of the house.
When I wrote that I was thinking of just giving up on stopping the stalking and just allow my ex and his family to come and go as they please....
My friends are sweet.
I even befriended a comedian who is doing his best to keep me laughing.
He's a cross between Rodney Dangerfield and Eddie Murphy.
He had a stalker chick, too.
He's given some excellent ideas for keeping Shannon out of the house.
When I wrote that I was thinking of just giving up on stopping the stalking and just allow my ex and his family to come and go as they please....
he told me not to give in to that.
He told me to keep fighting.
That's what I am going to do.
I just wish I knew who was really behind it.
He told me to keep fighting.
That's what I am going to do.
I just wish I knew who was really behind it.
It's almost mid-October. That is typically when all hell breaks loose.
I have to be quite truthful about it....
I have to be quite truthful about it....
stalking doesn't hurt as much as being ridiculed by someone you thought loved you.
Shannon, Doug, Billy, Kelly, Rhonda, John, Stephanie and the other harassing members of my ex's family hate me. I don't expect loving things to come from their mouths.
That doesn't hurt.
It hurt when it came from Steve.
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It's foolish to date someone who doesn't understand that the 6'1", 400 lb blonde woman that looks like my daughters is a stalker. How many people look like that? Shannon lives in an hour away. She's a relative. If she was being forthright and honest, I'm sure she would have approached the table.
She looked up every time I mentioned one of my kids. I shifted my chair to avoid looking at her. He turned around and glared at her! WTH? Is he daft? Did he not understand why I was nervous?
Did he not notice my smartphone wigging out?
I don't know.
I don't understand how phone stalker apps work.
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My family was livid when I told them what he said about me being mentally ill and lying about the stalking.
My aunt was with me during a fun drive through the city when three of them were following me after I moved to a new home.
Many members of my family have been harassed by my former in-laws.
Steve doesn't get it.
He won't get it.
The man I want in my life will understand.
I'm not going to cohabit, marry, or date someone who could potentially answer the door for a 400 lb, tall chick with a red truck and a handgun.
Get real.
I have decided to play nice with my ex-husband until I can figure out how to solve this on my own.
There has to be a win-win.
I've got to find that.
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I have made a resolution not to look at garbage.
If a man sends me vile texts, I will block him.
If a man sends me vile emails, he loses the privilege of emailing me.
I refuse to communicate with an a-hole.
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I don't trust him anymore.
I believe that he verbally assaults me due to the abuse he deals with from his mother.
He could be abusive due to the alcoholism.
He could drink due to the abuse from his mother.
I don't know.
The whole situation is bizarre.
It's enmeshed.
I had to get away.
I can't deal with it.
It's an energy drain.
It makes it hard for me to keep my confidence up enough to interview for the high-paying jobs I'm going to need when my money runs out.
There was a time when Steve went ballistic towards me because his mother served him potatoes.
I'm not joking.
I was labeled a sociopathic loser because his mother made him potatoes!
He had a justification. His mother doesn't honor his requests so I don't honor his requests. When I asked for a specific example of a request that I didn't honor, he had none.
That sounds familiar.
That sounds too familiar.
Michael said the same things about his mother.
For 22.5 years, I was stalked by Michael's crazy siblings!
His mother is psycho.
His siblings are psycho.
I am NOT doing that again with another man.
That is surreal.
It really is.
I think it speaks to a mental illness and it is NOT mine.
I hope he gets help for the drinking.
I hope he finds a way to get away from his mother's control.
I really do.
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Yes, one of Steve's last requests was to stop posting about abusive relationships online and replace those with accolades of him.
Yes, I should say that I will never honor a request to censor my language online, especially if what I am typing has nothing to do with any specific person and has the power to help other people.
I am an author.
Yeah, I have a good editor....thank goodness.
I write.
Don't ask me to change that.
I don't believe in allowing others to engage in censorship.
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After seeing what Steve's daughter wrote to Facebook and reading how her apology mirrored what he was saying about me, I began to fear that Steve would try to verbally abuse my kids.
I have to keep him from my kids.
That's a sad realization.
I love my friend.
I miss my friend.
I doubt he ever loved me.
It hurts to have to stay away from him.
I'm in pain.
It'll go away.
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It's not a good thing to verbally abuse the members of my household.
They've put my ex in his place.
He doesn't yell when they are around anymore.
I've done a darn good job teaching them how to diffuse bullshit.
Why can't I?
Shannon, Doug, Billy, Kelly, Rhonda, John, Stephanie and the other harassing members of my ex's family hate me. I don't expect loving things to come from their mouths.
That doesn't hurt.
It hurt when it came from Steve.
*****
It's foolish to date someone who doesn't understand that the 6'1", 400 lb blonde woman that looks like my daughters is a stalker. How many people look like that? Shannon lives in an hour away. She's a relative. If she was being forthright and honest, I'm sure she would have approached the table.
She looked up every time I mentioned one of my kids. I shifted my chair to avoid looking at her. He turned around and glared at her! WTH? Is he daft? Did he not understand why I was nervous?
Did he not notice my smartphone wigging out?
I don't know.
I don't understand how phone stalker apps work.
*****
My family was livid when I told them what he said about me being mentally ill and lying about the stalking.
My aunt was with me during a fun drive through the city when three of them were following me after I moved to a new home.
Many members of my family have been harassed by my former in-laws.
Steve doesn't get it.
He won't get it.
The man I want in my life will understand.
I'm not going to cohabit, marry, or date someone who could potentially answer the door for a 400 lb, tall chick with a red truck and a handgun.
Get real.
I have decided to play nice with my ex-husband until I can figure out how to solve this on my own.
There has to be a win-win.
I've got to find that.
*****
I have made a resolution not to look at garbage.
If a man sends me vile texts, I will block him.
If a man sends me vile emails, he loses the privilege of emailing me.
I refuse to communicate with an a-hole.
*****
I don't trust him anymore.
I believe that he verbally assaults me due to the abuse he deals with from his mother.
He could be abusive due to the alcoholism.
He could drink due to the abuse from his mother.
I don't know.
The whole situation is bizarre.
It's enmeshed.
I had to get away.
I can't deal with it.
It's an energy drain.
It makes it hard for me to keep my confidence up enough to interview for the high-paying jobs I'm going to need when my money runs out.
There was a time when Steve went ballistic towards me because his mother served him potatoes.
I'm not joking.
I was labeled a sociopathic loser because his mother made him potatoes!
He had a justification. His mother doesn't honor his requests so I don't honor his requests. When I asked for a specific example of a request that I didn't honor, he had none.
That sounds familiar.
That sounds too familiar.
Michael said the same things about his mother.
For 22.5 years, I was stalked by Michael's crazy siblings!
His mother is psycho.
His siblings are psycho.
I am NOT doing that again with another man.
That is surreal.
It really is.
I think it speaks to a mental illness and it is NOT mine.
I hope he gets help for the drinking.
I hope he finds a way to get away from his mother's control.
I really do.
*****
Yes, one of Steve's last requests was to stop posting about abusive relationships online and replace those with accolades of him.
Yes, I should say that I will never honor a request to censor my language online, especially if what I am typing has nothing to do with any specific person and has the power to help other people.
I am an author.
Yeah, I have a good editor....thank goodness.
I write.
Don't ask me to change that.
I don't believe in allowing others to engage in censorship.
*****
After seeing what Steve's daughter wrote to Facebook and reading how her apology mirrored what he was saying about me, I began to fear that Steve would try to verbally abuse my kids.
I have to keep him from my kids.
That's a sad realization.
I love my friend.
I miss my friend.
I doubt he ever loved me.
It hurts to have to stay away from him.
I'm in pain.
It'll go away.
*****
It's not a good thing to verbally abuse the members of my household.
They've put my ex in his place.
He doesn't yell when they are around anymore.
I've done a darn good job teaching them how to diffuse bullshit.
Why can't I?
*****
I'm off to scheme a political strategy.
I have an idea.
I can't tell anyone until I get it published.
I am pretty darn sure it'll work IF I can get someone with more political clout and money to steal it from me.
Yeah...I just want the deed done.
I care not who gets the credit.
I'm off to try to shorten a 1200 word history lesson into a 500 word cheer-leading piece.
It'll work out.
It won't have all that covert hypnosis I usually put in it -but- I hope it makes the idiots playing the games think a little bit.
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I had a fun thing happen today. One of my Libertarian idols friended me on Facebook. That was a thrill.
I wonder why?
I hope he has a project in mind.
I love working for freedom.
It is amazing what one can accomplish when she isn't dealing with petty arguments and bull from insecure men.
The b!tch is back.
Love ya,
I'm off to scheme a political strategy.
I have an idea.
I can't tell anyone until I get it published.
I am pretty darn sure it'll work IF I can get someone with more political clout and money to steal it from me.
Yeah...I just want the deed done.
I care not who gets the credit.
I'm off to try to shorten a 1200 word history lesson into a 500 word cheer-leading piece.
It'll work out.
It won't have all that covert hypnosis I usually put in it -but- I hope it makes the idiots playing the games think a little bit.
*****
I had a fun thing happen today. One of my Libertarian idols friended me on Facebook. That was a thrill.
I wonder why?
I hope he has a project in mind.
I love working for freedom.
It is amazing what one can accomplish when she isn't dealing with petty arguments and bull from insecure men.
The b!tch is back.
Love ya,
S.