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Lessons About Love

Today I am thankful for my recent lessons about love.
The past three weeks have been a wild ride between my friend and I. 
I have to say that I have learned a lot. 
Here are a few examples of what I have learned within the past month. 
1.)  It's a myth that it takes three weeks to learn a habit. 
Habits can become instantaneous quite quickly.
The 'I love you' daily habit started without warning. 
The feeling of being on fire near a love was the result of one trial learning as well. 
This all came about fairly quick.  
One experience of being set aflame is all it takes for those nerves to gain that memory. 
Now, I can't sit near him without squirming. 
2.)  A relationship can come about prior to its being defined. 
Whenever two people spend time together, they are in some kind of relationship. 
We were in a relationship even if we were in denial about it. 
It was only defined because it felt like a relationship. 
That was shocking to me. 
3.)  Love is not about the circumstances that bring it forward: Love is about changing the circumstances to fit one's desires and needs. 
This is the strangest lesson.  I can't verbalize it. 
If we want something bad enough, we will make it so. 
The trick is being honest about what one wants and needs. 

4.) Love is the most powerful emotion in the universe. 

If it comes and one is ill prepared for it, there is no denying it. 

It will make itself known. 

One can only ignore it.  It won't leave of its own accord. 

Someone may drive you completely bonkers, someone may say things that make you uncomfortable, someone may worry you......

but it doesn't matter.

You want to work it out just because of the love that you feel for the other person.  

I've prayed for years that he finds someone available, someone prettier, someone wealthier, and someone younger.  He hasn't. 

I just want him to be happy. 

When I'm not around, he doesn't seem very happy. 

So, I'll stay. 

I would do anything for his happiness, even if it means sharing things about myself I'd prefer to keep hidden. 

This must be the real thing. 

The truth is that I'm not sure we will make it together as a couple.

Even so, I am still thankful for the lessons. 
Love ya,
S.  

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