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Anger

Okay, today I am thankful for Anger. 


Yep, that one is with a capital A.

My cross-dressing friend posted a picture to my Facebook wall of a bra that he thought was whimsical. 



My ex saw it and propositioned me!

I have been depressed all day. 

I woke up to a pile of his dishes.

I did a pile of his laundry. 

I had to stay home with our sick daughter. 

My job search is on hiatus for the next few days.

His sexual propositions give me panic attacks.

I'm starting to get really sad over this. 

I can't imagine how I am going to get away from him if he won't leave and I still act like his maid! 

This depresses me.

On top of that, getting bizarre email messages from him with offers of shots of warm milk really isn't helping matters.

He didn't want me in years.....

why now? 

This is driving me insane. 

It really is. 

How am I going to make it clear that this is OVER?

It's like he thinks my divorcing him is a cute little assertion of my will that won't get me very far.

What the heck?

Do I need to get my milk from a new source now? 

I wonder if my friend is still willing to take dirty pictures and leak them to the press. 

Just teasing....

I need to get my ex laid by someone else. 

That'll work. 

Love ya,

S. 

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