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Ending a Romance


 
 
Today I am thankful for realizing that my romance is probably over. 

My friend is hurt.

He doesn't know why. 

In recent days, he's made fun of my religion.  He claims he isn't. 

He's telling me that I hate sex.  I don't hate sex. 

There are few opportunities for us to hook up. 

When it comes to my home, I need to get my ex out of my house before bringing it into my home turf.

Guess who agreed to move out this evening? 

Yeah.....

I can't help but feel that this is too little too late.

I've lost my best friend, though. 

He'll realize that I'm not the one for him soon enough. 

How do I know he's gone?

He walks ahead of me at a brisk pace like he can't get away from me fast enough.

He's always looking at me in disbelief. 

He has a mocking laugh, like he can't believe the things I tell him. 

He takes a lot of the things I say out of context and reads them as insults when they are not.

I'm not the one for him. 

It hurts. 

I'm in pain. 

He's in pain. 

I don't know what to do. 

Do I tell him what I see? 

Do I wait for him to reach the same conclusion?

It shouldn't take too much longer. 

What happened? 

It is like we fell in love too soon. 

If we had met after my divorce was final, the story may be different. 

Things happen for a reason. 

May he find his true love soon. 

Love ya,

S.

 

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