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Livin' the Chaos Free Life




Today I am thankful for living the chaos free life.



Perhaps I am overstating this a little bit.  I had a chaos free day. 


I've been volunteering at the homeless shelter.  I was the babysitter.  Today the kids wanted to have a singing contest.  They all won. 


The children sing and dance like angels.  I love hearing them sing about being beautiful.  I love watching them sing and dance while pointing at other kids telling them that 'they are gold.'


Yes, I want them to know that they can fly. 


It is a beautiful experience.

*****


Let me tell you....


I didn't realize how difficult it was living with constant accusations until I didn't have to defend myself anymore. 


I like this life. 


I like being away from the chaos. 


It is a blessing. 

*****

I hate feeling like I am judging narcissists, bullies, psychopaths, sociopaths and other meanies.....the label doesn't matter, I guess.

What matters is how I feel around them. 


I can't stand walking around on eggshells worried about the impression that I am making. 


I can't stand worrying about my ugly car and how it makes people look when I drive them around in it.  It takes a lot of my time and energy. 


I wish I knew the magic trick to neutralize the criticism.  

I don't. 

*****

I do know how to get a timid child to sing louder and to know that her voice counts.  When she sings and dances to the song in her heart, she is truly showing the world her beauty. 


That is where I will spend as much time as I can.  I would prefer to build children up than allow an older person to tear me down. 

Life is good when I give.  It is in the giving that one truly gets something. 

Happy Thanksgiving. 

Love ya lots,

S.

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