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Life without Distractions and Dirty Games

Today I am thankful for having less distractions and man games to contend with.

It's interesting what I can actually get accomplished when I don't have to second guess myself all the time.

I turned my cell phone off. 

I refuse to listen to any messages that are not from clients.

Life is good. 

I am really getting a lot of things done. 

I am not sitting around sulking or worrying or planning around visits with a certain man.
I am not budgeting for dates or worrying about whether or not I can volunteer over the weekend.

I am no longer worried about being stalked because I really don't have a boyfriend.  I am not sure I can stand him.  I feel constantly attacked and criticized.  I can't deal with that.  I know he is trying to help -but- I've got to help myself first.

I really do not know if it is appropriate to respond to a text from a man telling me that I cannot meet my own needs.

Oh....gawd....

uh....

dude....

um.....

I won't go there. 

He was angry that I did not see him on Friday night.  I was working on an exit plan.  I've made progress.  I am happy about that.  This man and I had no concrete plans to see each other.  I wanted to fix my mess.

He appears to need me to see him every Friday.  I cannot meet that need and I told him so. 

Then, he responded that I couldn't meet my own needs.

Okay....sure....whatever.....

Life is good. 

I think I'll keep mum on the new developments for now.  I am incredibly excited about them. 

I do have clarity on the stalking situation now.  It is my ex-husband.  I just have to stay in the shadows and away from other men until he moves out.

It's all good. 

Love ya,

S. 


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