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Today I am thankful for fate.


I was really starting to get worried about the best way to break up with Steve.  I don't think I can get past the not being good enough for him.  I don't know how to deal with him reading into and having his feelings hurt by the seemingly innocent things I do and say. 


You know what?  I don't have to. 


He's with someone else and they've set up housekeeping. 


Yep, he is apparently in a domestic partnership. 


I guess all is well that ends well.  It'll hurt but I guess it is for the best.  Perhaps the universe didn't want me to be hurt and set things up to where I couldn't let Steve move in with me.


Now, let me figure out how to get out of my alleged domestic partnership with my ex-husband.  I'm negotiating selling the house and moving out of the state.  I have nothing here for me now. 


I don't think he's going to let me move out of state.  My ex-husband wants me to stay in this house and invest in guns.  I'm having a hard time believing that he and his sister are not working in tandem to keep me trapped here. 


Love ya,


S. 


Edit: I actually wound up blocking Steve on all my social networks.  He's getting a little dark and scary.  Besides, seeing his face makes me miss him.  Sometimes we have to do what is best for ourselves despite how it makes others feel. 


I have never dated anyone so insecure before.  I thought I could alter my behavior to change it.  I guess I can't.  I have no clue where those sensitive areas are.  I cannot avoid touching those unless I never have sex, never talk, and never do anything.


There is the possibility that I could never do anything right because he needed to run me off to protect his new relationship.  That makes sense.  This is a good solution. 




I think I'll protect my fragile heart by avoiding Facebook for awhile. 


It will all work out. 

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