Confusion

Today I am thankful that I understand that confusion is natural.

I'm going to admit it. 


I am confused. 


I am realizing that confusion is normal when someone doesn't have all the answers.


It is okay to be confused.

*****

I'm exhausted.  It was an emotionally trying day. 


I got the chairs back from Steve.


We had a five hour conversations at a bar.  We spoke of games, arguments, and witchcraft.  We spoke of all the reasons our friends and family think we should split. 


I think I embarrassed the cook. 


The cook is, in all reality, a chef.


He made us a masterpiece.  It was steak, wrapped around an avocado with some special sauce that no one could duplicate anywhere else.  It was wrapped in some fancy bread.  It was pretty good. 


He asked for feedback. 


I thought it was a work of art.


I told him that I enjoy eating Art.


Then he disclosed that Art was the name of his boss.


I think the red will leave my cheeks sometime within the next few weeks.

*****

I spent the better part of the morning waiting at an office. 

While there I thought about the stalking. 

I realize that if Mike is doing it, he's doing it out of concern.

I am not going to worry about it anymore.

Mike wouldn't hurt his kids.

Mike has never hit me. 

It's going to be okay. 

I do not understand why his sister does the things she does.  I am confused.  You know, it's okay. 

I'm not worried about the stalking due to my belief that Mike is behind it. 

I'm more worried about him not being able to survive if I don't earn money to nix the idea of alimony and lower his child support payment.

My time would be better served focused on earning cash. 

I am sorry that this is short.  I haven't been sleeping.  I need to try today. 

I need to go off and cry myself to sleep. 

Love ya,

S.