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Epiphanies

Today I am thankful for epiphanies.


I am going to try to make this as short and sweet as I possibly can. 

I think that I am in danger.

One of my in-laws contacted my ex-husband about my move out of state to get away from the stalking.

I don't know why this bugs me. 

It just does. 

He claims he hasn't spoken to them for well over a year.

I don't know. 

He swears up and down that I am in no danger.  He says that his sister  or another relative will try to approach me to ask me to stay in Colorado.  They may try to intimidate me, he says, but he knows that they will not harm me.

He thinks he can get Shannon to sign a statement saying she will leave me alone.  If he produces proof that the stalking is over, I will stay.

I don't believe that at all. 

I don't believe a signed statement will be proof that it is over.

I do believe that his sister would do far more than rough me up if she had the chance.

If I turn up blue in the next few days, it is due to this issue.  Take a look at Michael's Facebook feed.

*****

I know who my stalker really is.


I need to get away from his control.


This is why I am anxious. 


This is why I obsess over the stalking when he is near me or when I am in the house Shannon tried to break into. 


I need to find a way to get away. 
I am still trying to figure out how this happened and how this turned into a threat.  I just wanted to stop the stalking so I could get a job.  If I work, he won't have to pay alimony.  The best chance of me keeping a job is if I can get away from my stalking in-laws.


*****
I think I know why my in-laws like drama so much.  It keeps them distracted from real life.  It helps them control other people.  It is a complete waste of time.  I know what I need to do to take control now.



Love ya,


S. 









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