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Teeny Tiny Regrets



Today I am thankful that I found some teeny tiny regrets.

I think I know what happened.  I've been busy.  I've been working 14 hour days since last Wednesday.

I volunteered for three long days.  In return, they gave me a free Concealed Carry Gun course.

I'm just waiting for the background check now.

Woo Hoo!

With Shannon and Doug stalking me, I couldn't pass it up.

I also had numerous motivational courses on marketing and fundraising.  I even learned that we have cities and towns with their own currency.  I even learned about the history preceding BitCoin.  Steve picked the wrong day to stop talking to me.  I was given the CD on Sunday about twelve hours after he blew a gasket.

I'll give it to someone else....sigh.

I love my friends.

I wasn't at Steve's beck and call because I was busy.  He has been weird lately.  I'm not sure I want him around.  I'm already trying to ditch one personality disordered guy.

I need to get my head straight to deal with another person's tantrums.

I'd be happiest if he found a new chick.  If he did, though, he'd be busy with her and not f'ing with my friends' heads.

I did talk to my politician friends about his issue without saying his name.

I actually met someone involved in politics that had the exact same thing happen to her, in the same city, a couple of years ago.  I will visit with the school board next week....with HER!

Thanks Steve....I needed to know that in order to talk to her. 

I'm in contact with someone who deals with the medical aspects of the reason for the issue. 

If I can't help him, I'm going to help someone else. 

So....Steve can stick a sock on it. 

My only regret is that he never let me send him all those lessons on Mentalism. 

He unfriended me for one of them.

Yep...

I'll share that lesson. 

Mentalism is a combination of magic and covert hypnosis. 

Siegfried's first rule of mentalism is to make the target think that you have powers you do not have. 

It works for me...

all...
the...
time. 

I'm going to sign off.  I haven't slept for nearly a week. 

I think Steve doesn't want to see my face.  I think he is upset that we have so many friends in common.  Actually few of them really know him as well as they know me.  I see them all the time in person.  They may have met him once or only online. 

He probably unfriended them to avoid me.  I think they confused about why he'd unfriend them and try to re-friend them.

So...I don't address anything with them.

I've avoiding them, including Mr. Fitness.

Mr. Fitness is kind.  Kindness is hot.  Maybe someday I'll tell you about the time he tried to rescue me from obnoxious bees at a picnic. 

If he didn't want to cop a feel then, he doesn't want to do it now.

Steve is jealous of him for some reason.  There is no reason to be jealous. 

Perhaps that could be the issue; I do talk to a lot of men.

My job requires it. 

I don't know. 

Steve could be upset that he hit on something I've been fighting about for years.  I thought it was resolved.  It wasn't. 

Or - he's angry that he lied to me. 

No biggie. 

I'm not ready for romance. 

I will never trust him again because he behaved like a little kid and failed to communicate about it; so it is completely over.  When he finds someone else and wants to do something to stop other people from having their lives ruined.  He can call me. 

May he have fun until that day. 

This is quite sad.  He really was everything I wanted in a man...except...the being bizarre to my friends business.

Sigh....

On the bright side, I was hit on by a drunk INTP at a party last Friday.  I sent him packing because I wasn't interested.

Now, I don't see why I shouldn't talk to him.  Maybe I'll buy him a beer the next time I see him.

Love ya,

S. 


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