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Today I am thankful for realizations.  

Michael handed me a note promising me the house, the 401K and custody of the kids.  I told him to come up with something a little more fair towards himself.

He started crying because he doesn't want a divorce.  I'm all he lives for.

He hasn't touched me in six years and I'm what he wants.

Yeah...right!!

I am so flippin' pissed!

I knew it!!

I knew it!!!

The games...the stalking...the lying...the bullshit...the threats to kill himself....

it is all designed to keep me here.

I still don't get the stalking shit.  He claims it's his sister and he can't keep me safe from her.  He can't help but tell them how to find me, so he tells me that I will never be safe so long as I am married to him.

The cops say he's the stalker and that I'll never be safe until he moves on to another woman.

I'm confused.

I'm seriously thinking that the only way to stay safe is to move far away.

Maybe California?

That would be the last place he'd look.  It's a liberal hellhole.

Maybe Texas?

This would be the first place he'd look, it's a libertarian paradise.

I don't know.

I'm seriously thinking about Mexico.

I can move.

Or, I can conjure something freaky.

Hmmmm.....if you see flying monkeys, I'm staying.

If not....I'll be brushing up on my Spanish 

buenas noches,

S.

Edit 3/5/13  4:03 p.m.

I just spoke to a P.I. 

Michael is my stalker.  There is no proof only that he's seen this a thousand times before and he nearly broke out in laughter when I told him that Michael's sister is the stalker. 

Yes, I have seen her do it. 

Yes, I have seen her fiance do it. 

Yes, I've fielded abusive phone calls from his cousin, his aunts, his uncle, his mother and his sister.  Many of these phone calls contain tidbits of knowledge about things I've done and state that they had driven by and watched me.  The last recording I have of this was several years ago.  I screen my calls now. 

But the stalking always happens shortly after having a communciation with Michael. 

So....I have no choice but to end the relationship immediately. 

Sadly, I'm going to have to keep Steve and any male friend at arm's length.

I'm in pain. 

I'll need a couple of days to sort it all out.

On the bright side, the P.I. doesn't think I am in any danger.  He told me to alert my friends, family, and coworkers and let them know to call the police if they are threatened. 

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