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Redhead Porn

Today I am thankful my daughters are not redheads.

My adult children were cleaning out their father's room.  He had many of the eldest daughter's things in that room; her jewelry, her furniture and her high school yearbooks.

She and the eighteen year old went inside to retrieve her things to take back to the house she bought a few years ago. 

They came out with Porn; porn of redheaded succubi.


I don't know what to think about it.

Is it a sign of love that your ex has stacks of magazines and movies of younger women who resemble you?

Or is it insulting that the kids found it?

I'm a little sad.  At least none of my daughters have the ginger gene.

*****

I'm a little disgusted.

Maybe.....those magazines have nothing to do with me.

Maybe he just likes redheads.

Who knows?

I need to burn those damn things in the fireplace.

*****

Speaking of hair color, I thought I should mention that the herb Foti is darkening my hair.

It's almost burgundy now.  The gray is fading into darkness.

Interesting......I only mention this in case someone wants to try it. 

Now, if only I could find an herb that keeps me from curiously reading old newpapers describing other mall attacks on December 27th of recent years, I'd be okay.

What we witnessed yesterday has happened before, exactly one year previously.

I didn't need to know that.

How does one cure curiosity?

I could probably go with a chemical lobotomy, huh?

Thorazine anyone?

Love ya,

S.

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