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Craziness

Today I am thankful that I've lost my patience.

So.....

I found out that there was nothing wrong with my furnace.  I was about to leave work early to bring home an HVAC guy

and Michael told me that the problem was the batteries in the thermostat.

I remember thinking that was the problem.  I was told it wasn't the problem, so I started to hunt down a loan for a new furnace.

I don't know if it was an honest mistake

or more drama.

I'm too tired for drama.

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My ex has been trying to get my lawyer to vacate the next hearing date by claiming he has to work the day of our next hearing (three days after Christmas).

Um....he doesn't have a job. 

He says he might have a job.  He doesn't know when it would start or what hours he would work.

It seems to me he's trying to keep the status quo by putting off court.

I asked him when he would move out.

He said he did not know.

I begged him to call his mother to ask if he could live with her.

He refused.

I feel stuck.

I think the $4,500 (soon to be $6,000) family court disaster won't do any good.  This guy is good at manipulating people.

He's trying to buy himself more time. 

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I told him the only way he could stay would be to sit down with a therapist and I and tell me exactly how the stalking is going on.

He needs to tell me how he's getting information to his family....

who is involved....

what he or they want....

and help me put a stop to it.

He refuses.

That is why he needs to go.

I can't even be a friend to my stalker.

I care about the homeless.

My ex is pushing the limits of homelessness with his behavior.

I'm pretty sure he's doing this crap to justify living in my home with me.

I wish other people would get wise to it.

He first left me in 2008!!!!

He left again in 2010!!!

He was supposed to move completely out in October, 2013!!!

Now that he's supposed to go, he refuses.

I'm frustrated.

This is all about control....control of my time....control of my finances....and control of my energy.

I wish I could get to the bottom of the crap....understand it....and put a stop to it.

I don't understand why the people who are supposed to help me refuse to do so.

I'll be livid if the lawyer or judge gives this guy more time in my home and my life.

This is unhealthy.

I give him gas money.  I feed him.  I probably should shine his shoes and pay for a haircut so he can get a job. 

I really should not have to put myself in danger because he makes stupid decisions.

Sigh.....

Love ya,

S. 


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