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So Mote It Be

Today I am thankful that I gave the thirteen idiots that sit at the big desk in Council Chambers an out.

At the stroke of midnight, I cursed thirteen dolts; every City Council Member, the Mayor, the City Manager, and the City Attorney. 

I used several black candles and a green one. 

Why green? 

That's the out. 

Here is the curse: these people will all suffer bad luck and financial loses until they reverse the damage they've done to the city employees and their families -or- move out of this city never to return. 

All they have to do is put forth a resolution denouncing their fines against the employees and return all the money they stole (with compounded interest). 

It's no secret what they do.  Men over forty are fined and said to be aggressive.  Women over forty are fined and said not to be team players. 

They fine them but will dismiss the fine if they quit. 

It is all quite discriminatory. 

It is typically done for one of three reasons; (1) to compel someone to quit so they can't qualify for a retirement package, (2) to keep their employees quiet about unethical behavior on part of abusive officials, (3) to compel their employees to break the law. 

These aren't little fines.  The fines are equivalent to four days gross pay. 

They are illegal.  I tried to get an administrative judge to rule but he refused stating that the fine didn't happen to me directly.  I cannot find one person fined who isn't terrified of retaliation.  They won't send the letter.  The Feds tell me it is illegal.  The City Attorney and the HR Manager won't stop it unless they get a letter from a Federal judge. 

Because I don't like to see families fined, I tend to cave when city employees are forced to harass me or get me to do things that they (in all honestly) shouldn't demand that I do. 

These fines are quite political. 

There you have it. 

Now, I will say that I did build in a get out of jail free card.  If a politician never voted without considering the impact on people, the spell did not effect him or her. 

One picture.....one picture would not burn.  It was printed with the same ink and the same paper as the rest. 

Bob L.'s picture did not burn.  The spell will not impact him. 

It would seem to me that he would be a pretty darn good mayor, too. 

Everyone else is guilty of political abuses on some level.  The only way to break the spell is to reverse the situation, pay restitution, and make it impossible to repeat the offense. 

*****

Sigh....

I realized that my ex is very good at getting the city to harass me into allowing him to stay.  He's always creative expensive dramas.  The costs associated with these dramas are the reason he can't afford to move out. 

Things around the house are breaking, too.  He says he wants to stay until he fixes them.  He never does.  I'm beginning to believe that this is part of the game, too. 

So, I am also realizing that despite the separation agreement or the divorce agreement, he is not going anywhere. 

Later today I have to tell my love to go away.  I don't see an end in sight now.  If I can't get my ex away from me, I can't be with my love.

I am in severe pain. 

Love,

S. 





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