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Today I am thankful for discernment.

First it was a man-mutated bat virus.

Then it was killer spiders.

Now, it is a killer asteroid with a sacrilegious moniker.

Watching the news is starting to give me a headache.

https://www.foxnews.com/science/god-of-chaos-asteroid-speeding-up

Why in the world is the media instigating fear?

Please be mindful of where you direct your attention.

We get what we focus on.

Love ya,

S.

I found some Howard Jones sheet music while browsing Ebay. I put a bid on it. We'll see. I'm too busy to check my phone. I didn't even know it existed.

Maybe this will help me move the creepy nightmares out of my head.

The probability is near 0 that I'll get my synth back from the adult kiddo living in the basement. I just bought her an acoustic guitar, so maybe I'll get lucky.

((( hugs )))

NEXT DAY EDIT: Originally, I joked about buying an Oberheim OB-X so I could play Rush's 'Tom Sawyer' to cover for the nightmares. Then, I realized I don't like keyboards and I wanted to get myself something I'd actually play - so I went hunting for basses in CovidTown.

Didn't really have time to play guitars that other people are touching.

Then, I decided that I need to learn how to do music therapy and that bass isn't really the best instrument for that - so I thought about buying myself an acoustic electric standard guitar to learn on.

But - now that my adult kiddos are hoarding the instruments (must run in the family), I'm really thinking about buying another synth.

I think I'll just wait until the city opens back up to decide what to do.

Besides, the dreams are not as nightmarish. They are finally few and far between. I don't think I'll be screaming out in horror until the next Mercury Retrograde. Thank goodness.

No - I didn't get the sheet music.

There will be plenty of other opportunities, if I'd just open my eyes.

I bought a book entitled 'Tao of Music'. Maybe it'll inspire me.

((( Hugs )))

Stalker Proxy Phone Calls

What kind of songs do narcissistic stalkers sing? I imagine they sing songs like this. I am grateful now that I understand why the stalker has people call but wish they'd listen when I ask them not to call again. I probably should document this somewhere. My ex was talking to an old friend of mine from high school on a daily basis. She is his cousin. I had to quit talking to her when she'd ask me to plan parties and then refuse to give me the guest list saying that the attendees would only be me, her, my stalker Shannon, and my NPD mother-in-law. She wanted me to plan interventions. This happened with a baby shower. It also happened with a wedding. The in-laws put together a fake wedding trying to host an intervention to shame me and my ex into doing things for them (like quit school and give them my car). I had to cut this so-called friend off over that in 2004....

Visiting the Graveyard in my Hometown and Addressing Fears I'll Soon Join the Party

Today I am thankful for a laugh. It didn't start out funny. My aunt visits once a week to use the washer and dryer. My new dryer broke just a few days out of warranty so we dried her clothes outside. While standing outside, she took me aside an said "I don't want to alarm you, but....." then she got silent. I pointed at the shed. "Are you worried about all the stuff pulled out of the shed?", I asked. "Yes.", she replied. "That happens all the time!" She advised me to chain the door. I've done that. The thief just tears the roof off. It's easier just to keep crap in it I don't care about so the thief can rummage and take what he or she wants. Again, I was advised to consider moving, especially after finding a full gas can in the mess. My aunt is afraid my ex-husband is going to kill me. I've been court-ordered to live here for another two years. Sigh.... I'm sure a judge would allo...

Temporary Ending

Dear Readers: Over the past three weeks, I attended both a city councilperson's town hall and the mayoral town hall. Despite battling the flu, I dedicated two days to watching all available city council meetings and study sessions on YouTube in between bouts of cold chills. What I observed was a troubling pattern of disregard for honesty and disrespect towards citizens, the rule of law, and the influence of partisan politics. It has become evident that certain issues transcend the scope of a mere community art project. This realization prompted me to raise my voice, a departure from my usual composed demeanor. After discussing the situation with my family, we collectively decided to remain in Aurora. It is clear that true leadership entails making tough decisions rather than simply following personal desires. I look forward to the opportunity to address these concerns further in a different forum. Warm regards, S. P.S. There will be a new website.

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