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Today I am thankful for discernment. 


First it was a man-mutated bat virus. 

Then it was killer spiders. 

Now, it is a killer asteroid with a sacrilegious moniker. 

Watching the news is starting to give me a headache. 

https://www.foxnews.com/science/god-of-chaos-asteroid-speeding-up

Why in the world is the media instigating fear?  

Please be mindful of where you direct your attention. 

We get what we focus on.  

Love ya, 

S. 

I found some Howard Jones sheet music while browsing Ebay.  I put a bid on it.  We'll see.  I'm too busy to check my phone.  I didn't even know it existed. 

Maybe this will help me move the creepy nightmares out of my head. 

The probability is near 0 that I'll get my synth back from the adult kiddo living in the basement.  I just bought her an acoustic guitar, so maybe I'll get lucky. 

((( hugs ))) 

NEXT DAY EDIT:  Originally, I joked about buying an Oberheim OB-X so I could play Rush's 'Tom Sawyer' to cover for the nightmares.  Then, I realized I don't like keyboards and I wanted to get myself something I'd actually play - so I went hunting for basses in CovidTown. 

Didn't really have time to play guitars that other people are touching. 

Then, I decided that I need to learn how to do music therapy and that bass isn't really the best instrument for that - so I thought about buying myself an acoustic electric standard guitar to learn on. 

But - now that my adult kiddos are hoarding the instruments (must run in the family), I'm really thinking about buying another synth. 

I think I'll just wait until the city opens back up to decide what to do. 

Besides, the dreams are not as nightmarish.  They are finally few and far between.  I don't think I'll be screaming out in horror until the next Mercury Retrograde.  Thank goodness. 

No - I didn't get the sheet music. 

There will be plenty of other opportunities, if I'd just open my eyes.  
 
I bought a book entitled 'Tao of Music'.  Maybe it'll inspire me. 

((( Hugs ))) 



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