Warped Gratitude Blog

Today I was somewhat thankful for the person who watched me vote..... I made him laugh. I have a bad habit.  I didn't know I had a bad habit.  Someone else pointed it out.  When I vote against an issue or a person, I say "fuck you" under my breath. Fuck You Donald Trump. Fuck You Hillary Clinton. Fuck You Gary Johnson.  I'm Pagan. Ah....I voted the Atwood/Huber ticket .  They've always left me inspired. They'd probably be upset if they knew I wasted my vote which is why they're running....to prove a point.  But...I'm not going to piss off Liber/Libertas just to vote for someone who represents a party who dissed my Gods.  In fact, the Liber tarian Party disses the God of the Forest by their very name.  They may want to apologize for the antics of their affiliate in Florida. ******** Fuck You 3a/3b. Fuck You politicians pushing Amendment 71 - they want to prevent another taxpayer bill of rights.  The...

Today I am thankful I decided to be more stealthy..... I went shopping.  I found a t-shirt.  It was Marvel branded.  It was soft.  It was my favorite color and had the symbol of my favorite comic book character. It was on sale. It was $2.99. I'm serious.  I was excited.  I stood in line before I realized that I would never wear it. I prefer lacey and flowery things. I am a bitch. I am a witch. I will win.  I will put a stop to the madness and punish those at fault. Why advertise? I put it back at the front of the rack in case someone else wanted it. ********** I'm still pissed at the judicial system. I'm still pissed at my ex and his pity party.  There are times when I fall for his crap.  He needs my money.  He needs my help because it'll take him four years to find a job and move out.....or so he says. You know what? He doesn't deserve my help!! He betrayed me. He ran to his family with...

Today I am thankful that I can name my confusion.   My ex pleaded guilty to the contempt action.  I only asked for remedial contempt. At the time I filed the action, he was allegedly working.  He was guilty then. He lost his job three days later.  He cannot pay me the money he took.  By reason, he is not guilty. The judge argued with him. How could he be guilty if he cannot honor the order now? My ex said he was guilty. The judge read back the divorce agreement.  He agreed that my ex has stayed here too long.  That he had the ability to give me the property settlement and move out when he was supposed to move out.  That he could have paid child support when he was working. He set the motion over for sentencing then....... THAT COUNTY JUDGE GAVE MY EX 60 MORE DAYS IN MY HOME!!!! Sixty days....... Sixty days of hell..... of missing mail.... of hacked computers..... of broken phones...... of games and cra...

Today I finally understand why my credit cards aren't working. I received an email from my bank.  It appears that someone is sending my mail back. Ugh... This never ends. My auto insurance company wants me to cancel my policy to get my ex off of it.  Apparently, someone may have called to cancel me from my own auto insurance. The games get old. There is a contempt of court hearing tomorrow. My lawyer doesn't think anything is going to happen.  My ex didn't pay me the full amount from the property settlement.  It took him about a year to share it with me as he didn't want to give me the money until I broke up with the guy I was seeing. When I broke up with Steve, I got some of the money. My ex has never paid child support.  According to the county, he doesn't have to pay it so long as he lives at my home. This may be why he refuses to move out after agreeing to move out on October 21, 2013. He was employed the first two years after our di...

Today I am thankful that I caught on to asshole games. I balanced my checkbook today.  I put everything on a credit card so I can get the cash back and I pay it off at the end of the month.  The marriage killed my credit and I'm trying to get it back. I have the auto insurance taken out of my checking account.  As I was looking at the ledger, I noticed my auto insurance payment was only $36.00.  Not $97.00. Michael is still on my auto insurance because he refuses to leave my house.  I fear any liability if he wrecks his car, so I kept him on the policy until he moves out. I haven't seen the new declarations page.  He checks the mail.  I asked to see it. He didn't know where it was. Oh.... So...I tried calling Amerprise and they were closed. It took awhile but I figured out how to create an online account, something I've avoided doing because of the stalking....and the hacking..... Low and...

Today I am thankful for the Sheriff's office. I learned that my lawyer doesn't understand domestic violence and control issues.  He doesn't think I can get a restraining order because he doesn't think I'm in danger or have any reason to be afraid. He thinks I let my ex stay here.  Nope.  I've asked for mediation several times and that is probably a matter of record on my file with the courthouse. In fact, I hired this lawyer six months ago to get him out.  My ex is still here.....$4,500 later.  My ex refuses to leave.  I am looking around for another lawyer.  I need someone that understands my issue. This guy doesn't get it.   Few people do. The police said they'll help me if they can catch my ex acting out.  He's been on pretty good behavior lately.  If he punches a wall, they'll help me get a restraining order.  That hasn't happened since the divorce. I still find it hard to believe that I have to share my...

Today I am thankful for anger. I lost it today. My lawyer's office called and wanted a third retainer.  They were informed that I was going to begin interviewing other attorneys because nothing has really been done on my case. I wanted to get a restraining order a while ago and was informed that I wasn't in danger. Now...mind you, my attorney and his staff are older folks.  He's over 65 as are the majority of the people he associates with. I flat out said I'm going to the courthouse and I'll get a restraining order. Why? My computers have been damaged.  My phones are constantly breaking.  Internet accounts are hacked and I was just informed that my ex-husband wasn't lying when he said he called his cousin and asked her to track down an old flame's mother to return things given to me in 1986. He did this without my knowledge or permission. This scares the holy hell out of me because my old flame's mother most be into her 70's by ...

Today I am thankful for Donald Trump. He is a barrel of laughs, isn't he? He always was.  Trump lost my vote when he used  eminent domain to harass an old lady in an attempt to steal her house in New Jersey for a casino or some other stupid project.  Yeah...I'm old enough to remember that.  It disgusted me.  I've never cared for the man and I was happy our paths would never cross. I am libertarian. True libertarians hate eminent domain. Eminent domain is the opposite of freedom.  Donald Trump doesn't care a hairy rats ass about freedom. Neither does Clinton.  She's not much better. Gary Johnson is a pothead who represents a party that hates Pagans. So....they all suck. Every....single...candidate....... stinks Since our options for the highest office are horrible, we need to be careful who we vote for locally.  Fill the House and Senate with decent people so the President won't matter so much.  I ...

This week I've been thankful for the flu. I hit my head two weeks ago.  I've had bouts of vertigo ever since. I pray to Asclepius. It gets better for a few days.  I vow to donate organic fruit to the food banks in his honor. I can't imagine a better sacrifice. I'd been having trouble finding a food bank that will accept anything other than money. When I realize I haven't kept my promise, the vertigo comes back with a vengeance. I met a lady at the store today who heads a food bank for a Christian Church. They won't turn my sacrifice away.  As she puts it, their God works in mysterious ways.  I think the vertigo is trying to teach me something.  I had my first bout of vertigo on August 19, 2008. An ex asked me out to lunch.  I had framed one of the drawings he gave to me on Christmas 1986.  His ex wife stole his artwork.  He was happy to get something from his past back. Feelings I won't ...

Today I am thankful for a knock on my noggin'. Yeah, last week, a huge rotisserie oven fell on my head. I collect 99 cent crap at Goodwill on Sundays.  They have five week crap cycles.  If stuff stays in their store more than four weeks, it will go on sale for 99 cents on Sunday. You have to wake up early for the good deals. I've gotten myself a nice fondue set, a huge rotisserie oven, a bread maker, a crepe maker, a wok and all sorts of funky kitchen stuff this way. If I use it, it sits on the counter.  If not, I store it on a set of shelves in my dining room. I never used the rotisserie oven.  I wanted to try something new.  It was on the top shelf of a cabinet.  I grabbed at it.  It fell on my head. I was dizzy for about a week. The first day, I went for a drive.  I must've thought it was 2009.  I wore a dress.  I stopped wearing them after a guy who shall go unnamed humped my leg and made a mess. That ...