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Today I am thankful for space.


The universe has finally given me the space I need to get my life back. 

There is so much do think about. 

There is so much to do. 


I don't know what to share.

This is the first time in my life that I don't have a male trying to tell me what to do. 


Actually, that's not exactly true.  This is the first time that I have found myself without a relationship where I have to concern myself with trying to build a life with someone else.


First things first - I have to clean up the mess I am in.


Home repairs! 
Resumes! 
The car needs brakes!


Oh, I'm going to need a security system, too. 

I can do this.  

This is exciting.  I was terrified to look for work so long as Michael lived here because he'd tell his sister and other relatives where I was and what I was doing.

They'd stalk me and harass my cohorts.

This will not be a problem anymore.  He took a job out of state. 


I am lucky. 

I finally have the space I need to figure out my what to do with the rest of my life. 

Finally!!!!

I'll get it done. 

I'm excited. 


It's a brand new day. 

Love ya,

S.

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