Wasting a Full Moon

Would you believe this is my favorite musical group?
I have all the Gregorian albums.
Can't say that for any band.

Weird, eh?

Today I'm thankful that I'm the laziest witch on the planet.

So - in the past few days

I thought about doing a ritual to help me find new material for the dreams.

Yesterday was a full moon so I set about to write about what I wanted.

All I could get out was

"Mars in Sagittarius"

Yeah, my Mars is in Sagittarius. Certain activities are a sport. Maybe I just need to find someone as athletic as I.

I'd like him to be smart so I can hold a conversation with him once in a while,

Kind,

Like dogs,

not hit people or animals,

be too busy to stalk,

have enough arm strength to hold himself up during certain activities....

Other than that, I'm not really picky.

Honestly, I don't trust my ability to pick men out. Judging by my last few relationships, my picker is broken.

So - I gave up on that idea despite my horde of red candles.

*****
I stole some bay leaves that had fallen from Apollo's tree and put them under my pillow.

They say if you do that, you'll dream of your next adventure.

Well -

If I had known it would keep me from dreaming, I would have done that years ago.

Apparently, there is no one for me....

Or, the universe knows I'd just run off if I met the person knowing our fate.

Yeah - I'm not feeling sorry for myself.

I'm actually smiling because alone time is an introvert paradise - it just gives me more time to bitch, paint and slap.

Love ya,

S.

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