Wasting a Full Moon

Would you believe this is my favorite musical group?
I have all the Gregorian albums.
Can't say that for any band.

Weird, eh?

Today I'm thankful that I'm the laziest witch on the planet.

So - in the past few days

I thought about doing a ritual to help me find new material for the dreams.

Yesterday was a full moon so I set about to write about what I wanted.

All I could get out was

"Mars in Sagittarius"

Yeah, my Mars is in Sagittarius. Certain activities are a sport. Maybe I just need to find someone as athletic as I.

I'd like him to be smart so I can hold a conversation with him once in a while,

Kind,

Like dogs,

not hit people or animals,

be too busy to stalk,

have enough arm strength to hold himself up during certain activities....

Other than that, I'm not really picky.

Honestly, I don't trust my ability to pick men out. Judging by my last few relationships, my picker is broken.

So - I gave up on that idea despite my horde of red candles.

*****
I stole some bay leaves that had fallen from Apollo's tree and put them under my pillow.

They say if you do that, you'll dream of your next adventure.

Well -

If I had known it would keep me from dreaming, I would have done that years ago.

Apparently, there is no one for me....

Or, the universe knows I'd just run off if I met the person knowing our fate.

Yeah - I'm not feeling sorry for myself.

I'm actually smiling because alone time is an introvert paradise - it just gives me more time to bitch, paint and slap.

Love ya,

S.

Stalker Proxy Phone Calls

What kind of songs do narcissistic stalkers sing? I imagine they sing songs like this. I am grateful now that I understand why the stalker has people call but wish they'd listen when I ask them not to call again. I probably should document this somewhere. My ex was talking to an old friend of mine from high school on a daily basis. She is his cousin. I had to quit talking to her when she'd ask me to plan parties and then refuse to give me the guest list saying that the attendees would only be me, her, my stalker Shannon, and my NPD mother-in-law. She wanted me to plan interventions. This happened with a baby shower. It also happened with a wedding. The in-laws put together a fake wedding trying to host an intervention to shame me and my ex into doing things for them (like quit school and give them my car). I had to cut this so-called friend off over that in 2004....

Visiting the Graveyard in my Hometown and Addressing Fears I'll Soon Join the Party

Today I am thankful for a laugh. It didn't start out funny. My aunt visits once a week to use the washer and dryer. My new dryer broke just a few days out of warranty so we dried her clothes outside. While standing outside, she took me aside an said "I don't want to alarm you, but....." then she got silent. I pointed at the shed. "Are you worried about all the stuff pulled out of the shed?", I asked. "Yes.", she replied. "That happens all the time!" She advised me to chain the door. I've done that. The thief just tears the roof off. It's easier just to keep crap in it I don't care about so the thief can rummage and take what he or she wants. Again, I was advised to consider moving, especially after finding a full gas can in the mess. My aunt is afraid my ex-husband is going to kill me. I've been court-ordered to live here for another two years. Sigh.... I'm sure a judge would allo...

Temporary Ending

Dear Readers: Over the past three weeks, I attended both a city councilperson's town hall and the mayoral town hall. Despite battling the flu, I dedicated two days to watching all available city council meetings and study sessions on YouTube in between bouts of cold chills. What I observed was a troubling pattern of disregard for honesty and disrespect towards citizens, the rule of law, and the influence of partisan politics. It has become evident that certain issues transcend the scope of a mere community art project. This realization prompted me to raise my voice, a departure from my usual composed demeanor. After discussing the situation with my family, we collectively decided to remain in Aurora. It is clear that true leadership entails making tough decisions rather than simply following personal desires. I look forward to the opportunity to address these concerns further in a different forum. Warm regards, S. P.S. There will be a new website.

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