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Scary Stressed but Lovingly blessed

Cyrus is a talented young lady but she's a little green when it comes to the realities of self-protection.  May she never live the horror 1 out of 4 women endure. 




Today I am thankful that the universe heard me. 


My favorite healthcare company in the world had a recruiter call me about a job.

Isn't that fun?

I haven't even applied.

The interview was easy.  They said they'd start the background check next week.

Interesting.

Things are looking up.

I had the day off because my blood pressure shot up to 164/122.  I kept getting dizzy and headachy, so I took the day off to go to the doctor.

I didn't want to pass out at work and scare my boss.

As I sat home waiting for the doctor's office to call me, I received an email inviting me to an interview.

I went in and was told I was a shoo in for the job.

That is the universe in action, isn't it?

My first lesson is to express gratitude for those organizations and people you respect, somehow that gratitude may lead you to better things.

At least it will lead you to a better mindset.

*******

My blood pressure is typically very, very low.

My doctor is worried that things changed so quickly.

We both blame stress.

It could be that I've been too busy to brew my Kombucha.

As I kid, I always took an aspirin a day.  I never knew why.  I think it was because I was raised by my grandparents and they religiously took an aspirin a day.

I haven't done that for a long time.

They stopped eating salt.  I dislike salt because, as a child, it was never added to my food.

Pepper....I love pepper.

I don't eat salt.

That could be why my blood pressure was always low, too.

There is a lesson there.

My second lesson is to copy and emulate the behavior of those you respect, it often leads to health and happiness.

I'm going back to my roots.

Please wish me luck on the new job. It'll be nice to be in a place where I won't worry about making the next mortgage payment and having money to budget towards tithing.

******

I am realizing that I need to have a lawyer help me with the crap I'm being doled out by my ex.  If he isn't bugging me in court, he or his family will stalk me.  Maybe the State of Colorado needs to keep him busy trying to lower his child support because this type of frustrating game isn't dangerous as much as it is expensive.

I just wish government would stop coddling domestic abusers.  When we let these controlling people off the hook for stalking, or assault, or financial abuse - they learn they can get away with murder.  Some of them even go so far as to shoot other people.   Yeah, most of these people are men.  Every once in a great while, there will be an abusive woman who shoots her own kids.

It's a sick, sick world.  The government is not always the best medicine.

I will always be a proponent of the second amendment.  I'm sad to say it, but the Aurora police department taught me that stalking is a joke.  To quote an officer, it's just "some guy messing with [my] head."

I learned to shoot and protect myself because no one else will do it for me.  It was a Republican politician who provided my gun training free of charge.  The Libertarians paid for the classroom.

I hate guns.  My step-father died playing Russian Roulette.  I can't let someone scare the holy crap out of me because my step-father was an idiot and irresponsible.

Sometimes, sadly, they are necessary.

Please think things through before following the dictates of the liberal crowd.  Gun control often leads to genocide.  Please read history.  The biggest threat is not the idiot down the road with a gun: the biggest threat is a government who can control it's defenseless people.

Love ya,

S.


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