Warped Gratitude Blog

Today I am thankful for good luck. I missed a deadly crash by about fifteen minutes. I did my Goodwill crap hunting thing.  Every Sunday, I drive to a Goodwill store that I had never been to before to look for dresses. You'd be proud of me.  I didn't buy anything!  I have lots of donations to give them though.  I drove to one all the way in the outskirts of Arvada and one in a town called Golden. I got lost and wound up around Morrison. I barely missed this ..... I have a strange compulsion. When I'm stuck in a traffic jam, I pray to Mercury.  Two people died.  Perhaps I should have prayed to Asclepius. There are five other injuries.  It's Sunday.  I guess it's not too late to pray.  ***** Yesterday, I look a neighbor kiddo to a fair.  I was supposed to go to lunch with my former co-workers.  One of whom is someone that I have feelings for.....deep feelings.....complete with filthy dreams.  We would spend h

Today I am thankful for..... the ability to remember my dreams. I'm sitting in bed stunned at my dreams. It's Saturday morning.  I did my ritual to Aphrodite and forgot to blow out the candles.  They're still burning.  ****** I'm preparing to take a neighborhood kid out to the county fair.  Her father is doing what Mike did to our family after the divorce.  He claimed to be jobless and moved in with his ex wife.  The child's mother lives with her kids in her parents' home.  The grandfather told me that his former son-in-law has been promising to move out and never does. There is a lot of fighting. I'm going to try to get the kiddo away from the fighting today.  I'm nervous about it because I don't like the rides at the county fair.  I'll go any way. Promises were made. A promise IS a promise. ****** There are promises that can seem like a vow. You don't know that at the time.  In my youth, I made a pr

T Today I am thankful for kind Karma. Last night was just....horrid. I've decided that I really dislike high school reunions.  I love the people -but- the reunions in and of themselves are frustrating. There are people who wind up paying for everything....usually it's a single mother who is too proud to ask for help.  I don't know if it is appropriate to offer to give her money.  She makes it known it costs money -but- she doesn't really give us an avenue to pay. I wind up feeling guilty when I ask if there is anything I can do and am told 'no.' ***** People don't typically remember me from high school.  They remember me from politics, school board meetings and the paper. It's a little sad.  Some people asked about it.  They wanted to know what I was up to.  Was I going to run this year?  Probably not.  My favorite seat won't upon up until next year.  Was I going to fight the pit bull ban?  Yeah, I just need to join the r

Today I am thankful for dogs. I'm sad I can't have one.  I tried.  I swore off men three years ago.  I figured I'd just get a dog.  Well....that's not going to work, is it?  ***** I visited a couple of shelters today to see if I could find a dog that didn't make my eyes swell and turn red.  My first stop was the Dumb Friend's League.  I was picked out by a beautiful pit bull named Darla.  Darla was anxious.  She paced the kennel back and forth.  She just whimpered and cried. Her previous owners surrendered her several weeks ago.  She was recently transferred to Denver after a stint in a shelter in Texas. She's a sweetie.  I live in Aurora.  The government would kill her. What stupid, idiotic, selfish, uneducated &$@&*^ (the plural version of a noun not fit for public usage!!!! She didn't make my eyes swell or my skin itchy. We saw a cute little poodle named Estrella.  She picked out the girls.  S

Today I am thankful for job offers. I had three in the past two months.  Two of them have been rescinded due to Trump's budget cuts. That's okay.  They didn't pay well.  They were temporary and grand funded and I wanted them so I could learn more about government programs.  I can't complain if the programs are cut due to a lack of use. (1) The social worker in me wants to understand Medicaid - I've sold Medicare health plans in the past but really don't know how to help some groups of people (e.g. undocumented immigrants, retired people who never paid into social security or Medicare because they were out of the county or evading the authorities). The first job only paid $15 an hour but the head of the department promised that I took the job, she'd teach me how to get these kind of people insured. I couldn't pass that up.  I was supposed to start the 7th of August.  Now, they're not sure they can afford me. Sigh.... (2) This job

Today I am somewhat thankful that I went to my high school reunion . I toured the school.  I had a conversation with a junior frustrated about her academic prospects, a sophomore about her frustrations with her beautiful hair and a bored hot man engaged to be married to another hot man I adore.  Each of them had things they wanted to work through.  I did my best to listen. One of the hot guys is a music teacher.  That's my dream job.  I gave my dream up in college when they told me I'd need to teach math because the budget for music teachers were cut.  I switched my major to social science\psychology.  I intended to get my Ph.D.  It's hard to do that when you're stalked on campus.  I do the therapy thing.  That's not fun.  I need to play the role of a human being in public rather than play the role of a therapist. I toured the school.  I took lots of photos.  The band has more than twelve participants now.  They win trophies. Between 1984 and 198

Today I am thankful for a warning I received. The stalking is continuing.  It's just changing shape.  When I asked that any child support paid be sent to the government, my ex started to make demands on my time.  Some of these demands corresponded with job interviews. I tried to set a boundary.  He could deviate from the court ordered weekend visitation if he gives me 7 days notice when he expects me to drive the kids around for him.  He was asking for Tuesdays and Thursdays without much notice.  He sold the mini-van I gave him so he NEEDS me to drive the kids around to meet him across the city. The times he chose interfered with my job search activities.  He expected me to drive the kids around town to meet with him; he didn't want to take the bus to pick them up.    If I had a week's notice, I can work my interviews and classes around his needs.  Yes, I'm taking classes to update my skills and retain my licenses.  Rather than honor my boundary, he cho

Today I am thankful that I'm a hypnotist. There are trolls. These trolls are typically male. They always think they know more than you. Like the old friend who tried to explain that schizophrenia is a disorder of nature before he was informed that I had a graduate degree in psychology. He is in tech and had, apparently, had little exposure to twin studies. He was cute so I didn't mess with his mind too much.  Well.....okay.... I did a little bit.  I gave him the suggestion to go on adventures and meet chicks. That's all I did.  He wound up getting injured doing something dangerous.  I didn't ask about the nurses.  Maybe? It worked? I don't know.  Trolls are fun....so are embedded commands.  ***** Today I had an asshole at the Congressman's office tell me that I had no voice because I didn't live in the Congressman's district. Um...... Really? I know where I live.  I know I have two friends that ran against h