Today I am thankful I figured out what is going on.
I think the stalking was intended to run me out of the house.
I think the judge expects me to live with and support my abusive ex-husband. .
One of my daughters came to me crying today - she can't live with her dad anymore.
She threatened to drop out of school due to the stress.
I think I have to move out
and let my ex take the house.
I was given the house during the divorce
OVER THREE YEARS AGO
because my ex spent most of the retirement savings and could not produce records of where the money went.
I guess the house and all the equity is what he is after. The house has nearly doubled in value since the divorce was final.
I'm looking for a new place to live.
My ex can take the house and get it foreclosed upon.
I can't afford to pay the mortgage and rent.
So......
I'll lose the house and the equity.
I hope that effin' judge is happy.
He forced me to live with my abuser another sixty days because the abuse had gone on so long,
what's another sixty days?
That's what he said. The Arapahoe County judge said that this had been going on so long that he didn't think sixty more days was a problem.
What's sixty days?
It's enough time for my kiddo to threaten to drop out of school.
The craps ends NOW!
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Rumor has it that I'm a witch that sends demons after people.
Rumors have a way of getting out of hand.
The truth is that I'm a bitch who has inner demons that cause her shadow side to play politics.
What do you believe?
If you believe in astrology, there was another woman born on my birthday whose son was gunned down trying to do the right thing for the courts.
She doesn't play nice either. She worships the government.
I see myself in her - except I'm Irish - and hate the government.
It took Thanksgiving dinner to remind me why.
I got caught up on the fate of a foster child I tried to advocate for back in '87.
I'm going to go to war.
It's a sick day when a docile redheaded woman goes to war.
That's funny.
Is there such a thing as a docile redheaded woman?
I have some white hair now. I'm going platinum.
It's awesome. I always thought I'd be a famous musician.
No...I'm known for something else.
Ms. Platinum heard that a one of the kids I advocated for was beat to death by the Denver Police Department twenty five years later.
Another was shot to death by the Arvada Police Department. I haven't had a chance to research the circumstances behind these deaths.
These men didn't have a chance, did they?
The problem started a long time ago.
They were both foster children of color.
I'm angry. When I'm angry. I smile.....a bit too long.....like I'm going to go for your throat.
For a government, funding is what runs through its jugular.
I know what needs cut.
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I realize now why I hate the government so damn much. They put me in foster care for a time. A relative took me in. They kept my sister in foster care.
I lied about my age and got a job so I could live in Capital Hill. I took the bus more than ten miles to school every day.
I graduated at seventeen.
I met a lot of homeless kids.
Many of them were abused.
The worst story hailed from Arvada. There was a group home near Olde Wadsworth. The kids told me about a twelve year old's bottom impaled with a broom handle.
I saw the terror in their faces as they told me the story.
I believe them.
Jeffco human services didn't give a shit.
I went to war with Denver human services a few times trying to adopt a relative away from her pimp.
I'm about to nail a Denver Human Services case worker with CMS. I mean.....seriously...if you kick a family with children off of Medicaid because they made $100 more in a month - TELL THEM ABOUT CHILD HEALTH PLAN PLUS.
CHP+ was intended to prevent churning. I want to know who he is, maybe he can be compelled to give up his good paying job to someone who actually gives a damn.
Maybe these assholes making insurance decisions needs to hold a state insurance license that they pay for out of their own pocket. It's easy to get. I've got one.....okay, I've got several in many states.
Come on!
The taxpayers are paying for CHP+ anyway, we may as well use it.
I SHOULD NOT HEAR ABOUT THIS CRAP AT THANKSGIVING DINNER!!!
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That's why I wanted a Ph.D. in social work. I was stalked out of school. My intention was to return for a PH.D. in psychology -but- stalkers are nuts that made me crazy.
I'm insane. I'm not insane enough to invest in a degree in this economic climate.
That's why I have a BA in social work and a MA in psychology. Social workers don't understand how psychiatric issues play into family dynamics. Psychologists don't understand how family can impact an individual's psyche.
As far as the broom wielder, that foster parent is long dead. The government paid her to abuse kids.
She got to live far too long.
I've been angry about that for a very long time.....a long, long time.
I saw too much.
I heart too much.
I even had two Denver cops rough me up. I guess they were pissed I didn't have drugs.
Their names.....emblazoned in my memory.....Sgt. James....Sgt. Miller.
My crime? I was seventeen.
My money went to rent and bass guitars. I couldn't afford drugs.
Sorry to disappoint...but the cops abuses led me into social work. I began to talk to the street kids.
I learned a lot about what they'd been through.
I tried to change things.
I've met people who actually change things. They don't take a dime of government money.
They're funded by churches.
Even the Pagans have a ministry.
I just realized that this is how the government made me into the bitch I am.
Hmmmmm......
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I had a lot of therapy for the PTSD.
The problem with stalking.....well...the PTSD is back.
The bitch is back.
I hate the government. I hate how they fund evil. I hate how they hide evil.
This is why I like transparency.
I know why I live and breathe distrust of the government.
I hope Trump keeps his promise to shrink it.
He won't.
He's a wimp.
I think you need to miss a few meals to really feel hatred for the government.
You need to sleep a night outside without somewhere to go.
You need to feel it....
You need to rescue a kid from prostitution and hold his hand as he dies of AIDS.....
RIP Brian L.
You need to get how this happens in the real world.
Trump doesn't seethe like I do.
He's never lived the hopeless pain of too much stupid government interference in his life.
When a couple of bike cops roll you for non-existent drugs.....you see why the government is too big.
Smaller government - it would be a nice thought.
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Thanksgiving day reminded me why I seethe when governments force people to live with abusers.
I thought that crap would end when I turned 18.
Nope - you can be forced to live with an unemployed ex-husband whose family is prone to stalking....
THREE YEARS AFTER YOUR DIVORCE IS FINAL!!!
Wow....just wow.....
by stupid social workers - stupid judges - all cozy on the government dole.
They don't care so long as they have their cushy jobs.
Maybe we need to make those jobs vanish into thin air.
Yes, I'm thinking about a campaign to remove this judge. I need his name so I can find out when he's up for re-election.
Yes, I have a plan.
There is nothing that can be done for my case. There are things I can do to protect others.
National stalking month is January. I have press contacts. I may fire my lawyer and go on an interview spree.
I've lost everything. Why not?
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My ex doesn't want me to move out.
He refuses to move out.
I can't take it anymore. .
I'm going to make a judge incredibly famous.
I'll offer my the ex the house.
I've offered before. He doesn't want the house.
He wants me to live with him. I can't.
There is something incredibly wrong with this picture, isn't there?
The problem could end if we could educate our judges as to the nature of control.
I find myself dreaming about the couple who the judge saw before meeting my ex and I. The woman filed over 250 contempt citations against her ex. The judge did nothing. Either those citations are valid or they are not. Stop wasting our tax dollars! Settle the issue and get these people out of court.
I'm wondering.....is she stalking her ex through the courts? It's costing the taxpayers a bundle!
Why is the judge letting people get away with this crap?
They need educated. That's it.
Stalking victims live in prison. I wish judges understood.
Maybe someday I'll thank the idiot for waking up my inner shadow bitch.
I've been asleep too long.
Love ya lots,
S. Edit sometime later: I made the offer. He rejected the house - I would have given it to him free and clear if we could move. He doesn't want it. He doesn't want me to move out. He claims he has no where to go so I have to take care of him....here. I did receive a low ball offer on the house from an investor. I wonder if I would be within my legal rights to sell it? Probably not.....