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This song came out when actor Ronald Reagan was president. 


I am thankful that I have a place to document the bizarre stuff in my life.

I'm super busy.  I'm running around like crazy trying to clean out the house so I can get the plumbing repaired, the carpet replaced and everything else.

I'm writing to document that the lock on the door leading from the house into the garage was mangled this morning.  I thought I heard something outside around 3:00 am.  I woke up but went back to bed without checking stuff out because I thought I was just being paranoid.

Perhaps I am not.

The inner mechanisms were supposed to be brass.  They couldn't have been if they were mangled so easily.

Luckily, I have braced all of the doors in the house with alarms, so no one was getting in the house.

The locks have since been replaced.  I noticed that the door and the door jam are damaged.

I swear I change locks more than I change my underwear!  I should probably invest in Schlage.

I'm going to see if I can get new doors and windows with the home loan.  I find out in two weeks.

I'll start saving for a new garage door opener, too.

******
There is so much going on that I do not know what to write about.

Should I write about the bizarre stuff going on in Poland?  In a nutshell, legislators passed a law forcing their supreme court judges into retirement.  It seems to me this is one way to change the law of the land.

It reminds me of the type of stunt our nutty lawmakers that refuse to honor their oaths of office might resort to in order to gut the Constitution that they swear to uphold.

It's almost as if there is a global push towards Communism.  It's not working out so well for Venezuela.

The thread here is communism - yeah, none of the parties and governments use the word "communism" but that is what it is.  Socialism is an economic system (not a political one).  Communism is an economic and a political system.

The Law and Justice party is touting the word conservative but they have incredibly generous social welfare (so...it's socialism in the context of economics and politics...aka communism).

The Democrats here seem to have embraced Communist principles.

Venezuela, again, uses the word Socialism but if you read up on what is happening, well...… it would make Karl Marx proud.

Political parties pervert words.  Liberal no longer has any sense of the root "lib" as in liberty (unless you want an abortion or to buy a gay wedding cake).  Socialism now implies Communism in that it is used in a sense of both a political and economic system of government. Conservative.....lol....I've met so many so called conservatives that rival the communists in their values.  My own Republican congressmen acts more like Democrat than his last Democratic challenger!

I had to laugh when I told someone I was a libertarian and I was trying to explain that the charges would be dropped against a woman who wrote a political statement on a PUBLIC sidewalk in chalk.

He called me a libtard!  It made me giggle.  I guess I am a Libtard in the sense that my Patron God is Liber (a form of Dionysus): If one drinks too much wine, I guess she can act like a tard.

I understand the charges were dropped last week.

*****

Or do I write about the problem of the United States Immigration pendulum?  Come on.....we ought to make up our minds as a county rather than let each administration decide how to pursue undocumented workers.

Under Obama we had dreamers. He promised people a chance to become citizens.

Now.....whenever I turn on the news I swear I hear "Born in East LA" in my head.   Under the Trump administration ICE seems to deport everyone and anyone.  You should see some of the videos that are sent to me.

ICE agents basically stalk people they think are immigrants (even if they are US citizens). I never thought I'd see the day when Latino US Citizens would have to carry their papers in order to prevent deportation!!!

I wrote to ICE after seeing one of the videos.  The agents were vile in response.  I truly hope that the Liberals end ICE.  At least it will lead to Trump's goal of draining the swamp.

Trump promised smaller government.  I'd love that!

This is disgusting.

First, how in the world do we expect immigrants to follow our laws if we wax and wane about them?  Or if we refuse to enforce them one year and then enforce them the next?

Our immigration policy is schizo!

The government makes crappy parents - I fear for those kiddos in the detentions centers.  Do I write about why their parents are unable to be found?

Well....they're probably in hiding trying to build a life for their kids in the USA.

I could write a book if only I had the time.

I've decided to try to carve out time to brush up on my Spanish.  I can't help people if I cannot speak to them.

*****
Yesterday I read my diary back through 2004.

I am seeing a heck of a lot of threads with the stalking.  Back then, I didn't call it stalking.

I called it annoying! I called it scary.  I didn't call it stalking until 2011 when the elderly billing clerk at my office was manhandled by a member of my ex's family.

The weirdest thing that sticks out for me is that everyone who has angered me was connected to my ex-husband - including Donielle (the City Tax Audit Supervisor) who told several whoppers about me in my ex's unemployment hearing.

In the unemployment hearing she blamed me for getting my ex fired in 2009 because I "fake heart attacks" and "had a degree higher than [his]" among other things.  During a lawsuit in 2011, she didn't attack me but stated that he was fired because he didn't meet his quotas (I consider government audit quotas unethical).  After the lawsuit, she sent me a crazy (and vulgar) email message saying that she fired him because he was fat and didn't fit the image of health she was trying to create for the department.

I was running for office (the top spot in her city) and she said some choice things about my politics.  She never harassed me again after the campaign was over.

That poor thing.....after reading the transcripts I wanted to send her to an eating disorder specialist.  After that email, I wanted to send her some Ivory soap for her mouth and hands.

Still.....the whoppers she told sounded very similar to the crap my ex-husband's family used to spread about me to third parties.  I ended that exercise realizing two things.

1. Well....the boss and the City trained my ex to blame me for any job loss he has.  They started it and he still uses that as an excuse to ignore our divorce decree.  He's going to keep getting fired.  He's going to keep blaming me.  Whatever....

His former boss and the City taught him that there was no punishment for domestic violence and/or stalking.  Once Donielle and the lawyers blamed me for either his (or their) bad choices, there was no way I could have a relationship with him because he became rather frightening to be around. Stalking is an act of rage - this could very well have been the reason he was so damn angry with me.

The City of Aurora doesn't take domestic violence and stalking seriously.  Part of the reason given during the lawsuit for firing him was that he allegedly physically assaulted me.  Donielle (although rumor had it that she was dating a police officer) never said a word to the police.

I'm still a tad bit miffed that they don't take stalking reports.  This further emboldened him.

Things sure escalated after that experience. The last thing this person needed was an excuse to behave badly. Worse, the last thing he needed was the perception that the City (and thus the police department by extension) was okay with his behavior and that stalking wasn't a big deal.  I'm fairly sure this is why things escalated.

It just got to the point of terror.

3. Since 1992, my ex-husband's family followed me around, wrote nasty letters, vulgar emails and left me disgusting answering machine messages claiming that I did things that I did not do.  If my ex-husband's boss claims I do these same things in a transcribed court hearing (yep...I have the transcripts) then the stories originate from my ex.

I shouldn't feel sorry for him.

He made my life a living hell.

I spent four years in hiding from his family only to realize it was him directing their behavior.

I'll never get those four years back.

Heck, I'm still hiding online out of fear of further harassment.

******

I'd best get back to cleaning my house and trying to find a way to minimize the sheer number of religious candles that I tend to have burning.

In the end, it didn't matter that the city police don't take stalking reports.

I am a religious fanatic.

Let's just say - prayers are powerful.

I wonder Liber would think about eliminating ICE?

Perhaps, though, that request would be more in Mercury's domain.

I wish I knew more about Mexican mythology.  Who is their indigenous deity of safe travel? I'm going to bet that he or she has correlate who is a Catholic saint.

Well.....if I have time to research it, I'll update the post.

Sigh....

Love ya,

S.

That is interesting.  I cannot find an Aztec or Mayan deity that pertains to safe travel in this world.  They had gods who helped with safe travels after death but not in this world.

I wonder if movement was so freely allowed under the indigenous tribes that there was no need for such a deity?

My step-father was Cherokee.  He used to decry the way our government stole the land and horded it.  He would ask me how the government could sell land and water that was so freely given to us by the Great Spirit?   I was fairly young.  I never knew how to answer.

He also spoke of tribal wars.  I doubt travel was safe.

If I ever have enough free time, I'll research it.  We know far too little about North American mythology in our culture.  It would be an interesting thing to write about.

It's a shame I didn't think to tape record my step-father's stories.

Oh, the Catholic saint of safe travel is St. Christopher.




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