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I Have An Unwanted Visitor

Today I am thankful that I've decided to sell the house.

There is an overweight Hispanic man with a beard sitting across the street in a Silver Dodge Ram dual-cab pick-up.

He's been there several minutes.

I'm terrified.

He swooshed passed me as I began to leave my driveway and he pulled a U-turn in front of my house and parked across the street.

I drove by and looked at the driver.

He looks too much like Doug. 

He has beard with a little gray in it.

Doug had a little gray the last time I saw him.

I came back home.

Why today?

Well....the district cancelled school due to a snowstorm that never happened.

The kids stayed home.

I woke up and there were little notes around the house telling me that school was cancelled so I decided to use the time that I would typically spend driving them around in my recording school.

The power started to go off and on.

I started to have a panic attack but thought, maybe, the wind was impacting the power lines.

I called my boss and stayed home.

I will be laid-off officially next Friday.

I thought it was psychologically healthy for me to stay with the team until we are all let go.

For this reason, I felt guilty about staying home.

I felt guilty about it until.....

now.

Maybe I'm paranoid.

Maybe Doug has a dopple-ganger.

I don't know.

All I know is that I have court in a few days.

I'm seeing people who resemble my in-laws in vehicles that they are known to own.

The first time Doug harassed me it was a Red dual-cab Dodge Ram pick-up.

The second time it was a white dual-cab Dodge Ram pick-up.

This guy looked like him and was in a Silver Dodge Ram pick-up.

I took a picture. 

I'd call the cops but I don't believe they'll help.  Aurora cops will tell me who is doing it and why.  They'll tell me to trust my gut.

They won't take a police report.  That won't do me any good. 

So....I'm staying home today and not going anywhere. 

I need to fix up the house to sell....NOW!

Stay safe out there....

The man just drove off.  Let me see if he comes back around. 

I'm really terrified.

I'm going to have to order more banishing oil. 

Love ya,

S.

Edit a couple hours later:  They guy came back.  This time he got out of the truck.  He seemed just a little bit too short to be Doug.  Doug is around 6' 2".  This guy was maybe 6'. 

He also seemed a little trimmer. 

He didn't call me Satan, try to break into the house or threaten me. 

I feel relieved.

I went out to get some aspirin because I think I nearly gave myself a heart attack. 

When I arrived home after the shopping trip, there was a woman in a white car blocking my driveway and chowing down on a hamburger.

Why my house?

I don't know 

I think I'm happy that I cannot work from home.  I think I'd freak out every time someone in a Dodge Ram sat outside my house or a women hangs out here in a white car.

Doug always had a Dodge Ram.

Shannon drove a white sedan. 

I can't live like that. 

I probably should sell the house and buy another one where these guys don't have a clue how to find me. 

Maybe the renters friends drive Dodge Ram trucks and love hamburgers.

I should probably have a cookout and meet them so I know who is who.

Still.....

Moving out of this neighborhood is probably my best bet.

The problem.....is that family court has me hemmed into a three mile radius.

It's going to be hard to hide. 

I just wanted to report nothing funky happened.  My house wasn't robbed.  No one turned on a spigot or broke down a door.

I guess I'm lucky today. 

Love ya lots,

S. 



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