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Today I am thankful for the lessons my hypnosis clients teach me. 

Early this morning, my phone went off. 

A woman from a little town two hours away wanted to drive to my office to stop smoking NOW.

I used to run a special charging $250 rather than my full fee of $600.

She saw an old ad and had cash.

The other hypnotist I knew in the area moved recently and didn't work the weekends, so I told her to come on down.

I took a long bath.  I drove out to the office and worked on a recording. 

I promised her four visits for $140.00.

That's what Groupon charges and I don't see how fair it is for her to pay more, especially since she's driving a long way just to see me. 

Yeah.....I'm crazy. 

I talked myself out of $110.00.

Tomorrow, I am seeing an elderly couple.  They offered to pay me $300 an hour to see both of them and teach them how to relax.

I couldn't take their money.

They're on Medicare.  I can't keep them from buying food or paying the rent. 

They heard about me while researching their Health Maintenance Organization.  I don't know how that happened.

I used to sell Medicare plans for their HMO....a very, very long time ago. It is possible I sold them their policy.  Maybe they looked up my name?

I didn't ask.  In talking to them, I got a sense for why they are stressed out and asked them to call their primary care doctor to ensure that there wasn't a medical reason for their stress.

I'm making them personalized recordings.  I charge $100 for that.

As I sat in my recording studio, I realized that in 24 hours I talked myself out of $610 of income.

After the company I work for took away my commissions, my salary has only been $710 a week.  I used to make $1,000 a month in commissions.  They didn't like paying it, so they took away my commissions and gave me a $2.00 an hour raise.  I was so happy to work in a safe place, I didn't balk at that at all.

Now they want me to work from home in a dedicated room.  The only free rooms I have are the ones my ex-husband trashed.  We've spent hours trying to clean up the mess.  It's going to take weeks to clean and sort through everything.   There is really no way I can meet my employer's demands as quick as they'd like.

To be honest, the office due date is moving target.  They wanted it by April 16th, then April 4th.  Now I have to have it ready by March 8th.  It's not going to happen.

They want me to install Broadband cable into the room by that date.  Have you ever dealt with Comcast?  It's easier to summon a demon than a Comcast tech!

Besides, the company wants to inspect my house on a whim without notice.  Everything is supposed to be paperless. I can't have surveillance equipment.  All of this kinda creeps me out, too.  I'm scared I may become rattled and grab my rifle.  I still jump when people I don't know come to the door or block my driveway.....even when I know it's not Doug or a member of Michael's family. 

Working from home is probably a bad idea for me.  It's one thing for them to have crazy, dysfunction and obnoxious rules in their offices but to bring them into my home isn't really a good thing for my family.

I probably should be unemployed.

I'm not unemployed.  I'm working two jobs. 

There was a moment when I realized how much money I passed by in those 24 hours. 

In that moment, staring into my pop filter, I realized that the lesson that I learned from these three beautiful clients is that I CAN make just as much money, if not more, doing hypnosis that I did teaching sales skills to insurance salesman.

If people are willing to drive hours just to see me and pay full price, I must be doing something right!

I'm going to take the severance package and look for another job. 

Still.....I know that company is sinking and that the jobs won't be there in three months  It's annoying they want me to pay the costs of the internet installation and service fees.  I understand that they'd want me to buy office furniture but the idea that I have to purchase a specific product to help them meet their goals, shows that the division is financially unstable.

Yes, this company is being sued for Medicare fraud.  I'm sure they're going to have to make huge cuts to survive.  We don't talk about this at the office.  I saw it in the paper. 

Bizarrely enough, I don't sell for the company being sued.  I work for them but sell for their biggest competitor.  I'm hoping the people I sell for realize how bad the ship is sinking. 

I have the feeling that I'm jumping off of the Titanic.

Thank Goodness I brought along my own life boat.

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I'm thankful I met the beautiful souls I met today.

I think I learn just as much from my clients as they learn from me.

I think the peace of mind and the lesson they taught me far exceeds the value of the $610 worth of services I gave away today. 

May you find valuable lessons each and every day. 

Love ya lots,

S. 


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