Warped Gratitude Blog

Today I am thankful that I no longer do anything online. My business Google account was hacked for the second time this month. I use two party authentication.  I can't figure out how they're hacking it without my phone. This is weird. So.... I don't use Google Calendar after Doug Vega started showing up where I was supposed to be. Doug dated my sister-in-law.  He was the guy who watched me sitting with a former flame eating pizza.  Yeah...I guess watching a guy eat triangular things just screams sexy time - no wonder we were stalked. Just teasing....in all seriousness..... I think my brand new computer has a hardware keylogger on it.  A software keylogger would be thwarted by my encryption software. So.... I'm pissed. I'm a lot of fun when I'm pissed. ******** Do you know what my favorite album is?  Ruthless People..... I've listened to it steadily since 1987.  I bought my first copy the day I broke up with my first love. I'

Today I am thankful for family history. My aunties told me that my mother wanted me to be this.... blonde.....blue eyed.....sweet....like the song. Well, the song pegged my nosiness. I am nosey. That's about it. Um......... I wonder what she thought when she got a redheaded child that looked just like her! What was she thinking?? I wouldn't have thought that. They got it right with the next girl.  They named her Ginger. She was blond as a child. She wanted to be a movie star....just like Ginger on Gilligan's Isle. She's got red hair now. Ginger fits her. She's a sweet person, like a ginger snap. I wear my red hair as a warning label. ******** When I was growing up, my parents sang me this song.... They were alcoholics. My mother was murdered four years after this song was released. I'd rather have a glass of worms than a glass of tequila. I hate alcohol. I only drink it in honor of Dionysus. I'm selfish.  I h

Today I am thankful I figured out what is going on. I think the stalking was intended to run me out of the house. I think the judge expects me to live with and support my abusive ex-husband.  . One of my daughters came to me crying today - she can't live with her dad anymore.  She threatened to drop out of school due to the stress. I think I have to move out and let my ex take the house. I was given the house during the divorce OVER THREE YEARS AGO because my ex spent most of the retirement savings and could not produce records of where the money went. I guess the house and all the equity is what he is after. The house has nearly doubled in value since the divorce was final. I'm looking for a new place to live. My ex can take the house and get it foreclosed upon.  I can't afford to pay the mortgage and rent. So...... I'll lose the house and the equity. I hope that effin' judge is happy.  He forced me to live with my abuser ano

Well.... Today I am thankful that I'm a bitch with a guitar case. I'm serious. I'm scared. My ex kicked a mouse to death. He KICKED a MOUSE to DEATH. I have to wonder ......am I or the kids next? Stupid judge......letting that person live with me another sixty days. I told on that judge to my baby sister....  don't laugh. She's my younger sister.  She's friends with serious Democrats.  We are talking a congresswoman whose mother is a domestic violence counselor. They have a theory about me.  I'm angry.  I advocate for myself (cuz I'm a libertarian.... they say it makes me selfish). .I don't think they figured out that the girl who got a former secretary of state riled up when she was attorney general - is the same woman that ran for mayor of a huge town twenty five years later. I met a secretary of state who had to wrestle my 16 year old sister from a state funded foster home bordello. My sister claims to be friends with

Today I am thankful that I discovered that I have a problem (or two) and I have decided to resolve them. Actually, in my world it is termed as the "Spell of Aphrodite." Women who are under the Spell of Aphrodite buy clothes.....lots and lots of clothes..... and shoes..... and jewelry.... and hair thingies..... and make-up. I've met some men that do the same thing.  I don't know if there is a name for that. Perhaps they are under the spell of Aphrodite and Eros. No matter..... Every Sunday I run out and buy an outfit.....sometimes three.  I usually buy dresses and shoes. I never wear them. I tell myself I will wear them when I get my life back.... when Michael moves out. I typically wear dark suites or jeans now. I've done this every weekend the separation was final. That is one pair of shoes and at least one dress every week since September 2013. Luckily, I've learned weird habits since then due to money issues.  I buy winter c

Today I am thankful for my hometown. I grew up in a small suburb on the outskirts of Denver. Back in the day, this town was mostly farmland.  My neighbor to the east raised chickens.  There was a stable in my backyard.  A rancher lived to the west of us. A local boy told me not to pee on the rancher's electric fence. I'm female....until he warned me, I never thought about it. I lived about a few miles from the original Jolly Rancher factory. One of my first jobs involved saddle making.  I was a cowgirl. I knew the rancher and his wife who told me stories about the cinnamon sticks she made. I also learned what a jolly rancher was.... oh my..... Growing up, it never dawned on me that the structure in the backyard was designed for horses.  For me, it was a place to practice my woodwinds away from the ears of other people. ***** My very first hypnosis practice was in this small town.  I rented an office in the pharmacy/card shop that my first love and I

Today I am thankful for being conservative. Holy crap, Batman!  Will the idiocy of government officials ever cease? Now, I have a school nurse trying to get me to argue with my ex. I won't. It does no good. Apparently, my ex promised to take one of the kiddos down for a tetanus shot. I'm a tad bit clumsy. I can appreciate a good tetanus shot. My ex was supposed to carry health insurance on the kids.  He can't.  He claims that he hasn't worked in over a year (don't know whose business trips I was funding a few months ago....but whatever....) He has to rely on vaccination clinics to get it done.  I'm conservative.  I have to rely on charity. There was a clinic on November 13th.  My ex promised the school nurse that he'd take the kiddo to the clinic to get the shot. That was before one of our daughter's teachers announced an event that day the coincided with the clinic.  Since a grade was at stake, he opted to take the kiddo to schoo

Today I am thankful that I see the situation for what it is. A friend asked me to a gem and mineral show. He's the security guard who used to walk me to my car after work.  I no longer see him because I was promoted and moved to a new location. He makes jewelry.  I try to make jewelry.  I make crappy jewelry and give the pieces to talented people who tear them apart and reuse the materials to make better jewelry. Then I buy the better jewelry. A couple of weeks ago, I found out a cute single co-worker his age makes jewelry and I suggested that she get to know him better. That's probably why he tracked me down on the internet and called me. Here's the deal.... My ex-husband's family stalks me when I'm out in public with men. I do a lot of things that guys do. They are 50% of the population, you know. It doesn't matter who I'm with.... I get stalked when I'm arguing with male politicians. I've been stalked having coffee with gay g

Today I am thankful that I bought a case of black candles. So.... I was hacked again at 10:23 a.m.  Last month, my Skype account was hacked.  Today, it was my business Google account. Sigh..... So many sick puppies.....so few black candles. My ex-husband is still hanging out in the house and asking for money.  I could curse that stupid county judge who gave him 60 more days in my home..... I need more candles and peppery hotfoot powder. Last Friday, I went to my office to meet with a client and the door was unlocked. I didn't call the cops.  I probably should have given them another opportunity to refuse to take a police report. I don't know what to do..... The IP address this time is different.  It may not be the same ol' hacker. My ex-husband said it couldn't be him because I banished him from my internet. I don't know.  You can do some creepy crap with pubic wifi. I'm trying very hard to be good. ******* About the election......ev

Today I am thankful for the internet , although I have to stay quiet on the internet due to stalking arseholes. I found this tidbit from 1998. http://www.westword.com/news/caught-on-tape-5058572 It seems like the Aurora PD and that Arapahoe County DA never really helped stalking victims, too much. The weird thing is that I was a volunteer victim's advocate for the DA the next year.  I remember helping ONE stalking victim...just one. We spent more of our time trying to find the families of undocumented immigrants who died in traffic crashes.  They didn't have real IDs on them, so we had a hard time finding out who they were. As mad as Paul Tauer may have been that Aurora PD doesn't stop stalkers, he didn't face the truth. They don't do anything about stalking Ed Tauer, as much as I respected the elder, didn't do anything either. I think I gave the younger Tauer nightmares. He circled me like a shark during interviews. Yeah....never tell a

Today I am thankful for research. I've done quite a bit of it. I've been divorced for nearly three years.  My ex-husband was supposed to move out over three years ago. Every day he's been in my house, I've asked him to move out. There were several times when he hasn't been here because he'd been traveling out of state.  Those days never bothered me, except when his relatives would harass me and stalk the residence doing crazy crap (e.g. burning paper in the front yard and turning on the garden hose to put out the fire). He had 60 days notice before I asked for the court date. He had another 60 days notice of this court date. Then, the judge gave him another 60 days in my home.  The judge never asked about domestic violence. He asked how I felt about my ex staying here.  I said I was uncomfortable. My lawyer said that it would be nice to give him 10 days to find somewhere else to live.  The lawyer asked that my ex be out in 10 days. The judge gave