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Stupid Crap I Say




Today I am thankful for the insight that blurts out of my mouth when I'm incredibly pissed.


I wish I had time to explain what happened.

I guess I can. 

I was trying to talk to Michael about moving out. 

He decided to call a therapist and keep his promise to get help.

I overheard him tell the therapist that he just wants his family to "back off" and wants to find a way to let them know this without being too forceful about it.

He also told the person that there has never been a threat against my life (not true).

Okay.....

I want to be forceful about it. 

I confronted him.  He denied saying these things. 

He did something else that makes me believe he's asking his family to help harass me out of the house but I am not in a place to share that just yet. 

When I confronted him and he started being rude and lying to me, I started visualizing smacking some sense into him with a two by four.

That's when  I heard the following statement come out of my mouth. 

In the United States of America,  it is not socially acceptable to physically attack and beat up abusive assh0les: We typically call the police and let them do it for us. 

Oh my......

I think I'm a little sore about some of the shootings of minorities in my current town.

Love ya,

S.





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