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Psalms

Today I am thankful for the Bible. 

It has been a day of candles and prayer.

Perhaps I'll share the passages, perhaps I won't.

I'm realizing that some people go all out to try to get the energy of others and to try to control them.

I realized that my ex knows he's making excuses for his bad behavior.  He is telling stories in an effort to get me to doubt my own reality.  He may even be telling stories to make me out to be crazy.

It doesn't matter why he lies.  It shows that he has yet to grow up.

I'm going to do my best to banish the negativity.

Sigh.....

Perhaps I'll add to the post later tonight.

I am realizing that we are not safe in this house.  The games will continue so long as my ex runs amok.

I received a child support check for $291.00 yesterday.  That's probably why he called.  He probably wants to get his money's worth in taxi-cab services from me.

$291.00....that will barely buy the alarm system and stun gun I've got to get now that he's scaring the holy crap out of me.

It won't even touch the legal fees.

Sigh...…

Abusers don't stop until they are made to stop.

I'll let you know how it goes.

I may come back to share some biblical passages with you.

Love you,

S.

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