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The Only Constant is Change

Today I am a mixture of frustrated and elated.

I am thankful for people who share their knowledge with me.


First, there was a young man at MAC Cosmetics who taught me how to hide the scars on my face.  I have to say, I felt normal after he put my face together.

I felt so normal that I started to wear my normal clothing (dresses and high heels).  Then I cried.

When I cried in joy, I ruined my make-up.

Right now, I am thankful for a young man named Michael and MAC.  I'll find a way to sing his praises.

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My boss gave me a day off to get my car fixed.  That was nice.

I'm not a sales closer.  I am good at closing when it comes to social service type of stuff (e.g. motivating people to do stuff or admit to stuff).

I'm horrible at pushing people into buying stuff in one conversation.  I'm more of a rapport builder.  I used to get my sales by following up with people.

In my job, if I can't sell them in ten minutes, I collect the lead for someone else.

I'm working on leaving and have a few job interviews scheduled.

My boss doesn't want to see me go and he is trying to get me to be a better closer.

I just can't push people on Medicare.  I can't bring myself to churn them from policy to policy.

I'm looking at jumping ship.

Maybe I'll leave a good LinkedIn review for my boss.

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My ex husband isn't working.  I don't think he's looking.

He got a child support discount because he promised to cover the children's health insurance -but- as he's not working, he can't do that.

Besides, he's never paid child support.  It's just NOT a priority for him.

I have to do it on my own.  The State of Colorado has given him three lawyers to help him shirk his responsibilities.

I'm definitely not happy about our tax dollars being wasted but that will be another story for another day, won't it?

I'm pricing individual and family health insurance policies.

I nearly fell out of my chair.

It will cost me a minimum of $550 a month to pay for their insurance.  That will be 40% of my take home pay from the job offering me the insurance.

The only reason I take crappy jobs is to be able to purchase health insurance with a group.  Group policies tend to have richer benefits and lower deductibles, co-payments and MOOPs. 

I think I'll need to go back into the hypnosis game just to be able to afford the premiums.

I can sleep when I'm dead.

YIKES!

I can't count on my ex.  It's a little overwhelming feeling like I have to do everything.

We'll get there.

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There are days when I need to trust the expertise of other people.

I have to trust my mechanic who will probably tell me that the reason my car rattles and shakes is that the gas mixture is too rich.  He'll reset the blinking check engine light and send me on my way.

I have to trust the oil change guys who said it was just a dirty filter causing the problem.

I have to trust the make-up artists who make me look human.

I have to trust that my lawyer won't let my ex-husband off the hook completely for child support and health insurance.

I have to trust my boss who actually improved my sales ability after the ten minute pep-talk.  I'm not good at pressuring seniors, so I'm looking for an exit. I don't want to drag down the numbers for his team and cost him a nice bonus at the end of the year.  I'll stay as long as he needs me to answer the phones but I'll leave the minute a closer interviews for my job.

May you be a person of your word.

May you also find trustworthy people everywhere you go.

Love ya,

S.


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