Today I am thankful for email notifications.
I'm getting notifications that someone is trying to change the password on my Twitter account.
I should be happy that they haven't succeeded.
This happens a lot.
The last time this happened, my account was suspended for a few days while Twitter helped straighten it out.
That's the problem with stalking....
you never know if these things are connected to the stalking craziness
or if these are random hackers trying to spam my Twitter followers.
I don't know.
In times like these, I used to find comfort in psychological research.
I'm not finding much comfort in the research pertaining to stalking.
They say that the longer stalking goes on, the harder it is to extinguish. They also say that if the ex-partner is angry or wants to hurt the victim, it can continue.
I'm going to have to get creative.
Maybe I should change my legal name?
The stalking has pretty much destroyed my business and my online networking.
Maybe it would be best to start over?
It got to the point where most of my web pages and sites were hacked.
My customers and colleagues were hassled in person.
When I ceased to work, my in-laws brought their crap to my door.
I don't know.....
In business, I have a personal brand.
I have to use my name.
I can't let other people mess with my livelihood like that.
I'm trying to brainstorm ways to protect myself.
In the past, I hired a gentleman in India to do my social networking for me. It worked fairly well. He has an IT background, so he kept everything very secure.
He'd make posts for me and answer people.
I can't afford him anymore.
Maybe I need to try.
Maybe I should give up on the idea of having a professional job until the kids are grown and I can move out of Denver?
The answer is somewhere. I just have to find it.
******
The problem I'm facing right now is my desire to get health insurance coverage on the kiddos.
My ex wasn't looking for a job when he refused to leave my home. Our kids lost their health insurance coverage. During the divorce, he negotiated a child support reduction and promised to carry insurance on the kids.
That didn't happen for very long.
What my ex refuses to do, I have to do.
It's always been that way.
As a small business owner, I couldn't afford to cover anyone.
I'm trying to get a real job (in an office with a company) so I can get health care coverage.
In the beginning, I thought it was feasible to work 40 hours at an office and twenty hours at a small business.
The temp job I have now is demanding about 50 hours a week with a varying schedule. I wind up exhausted. It's hard to see psychotherapy clients when one cannot guarantee a time slot for one's clients.
I'm thinking I'm not doing as well with the sales as I typically do. This is probably due to the lack of sleep and the issues that ever-changing hours brings into my life.
I regret turning down a job offer I had two weeks ago. A Durable Medical Equipment company wanted me to start in their sales department the day after they called.
I turned it down so I could give notice to the company I'm temping for.
Things are getting so crazy there, I think I would jump ship in a heartbeat if I was given the chance. They are asking me to work 70 hours a week. If they don't get takers, they will make the overtime mandatory.
I'm exhausted at 50 hours a week!
They're just abusing all of the temps in the same manner. I hear many of us taking calls from recruiters during our breaks.
I don't know.
I'm trying to be responsible. One can try so hard to do everything that she cannot be responsible to all of the things she has to be responsible for - when you work too hard, some things fall through the cracks.
Maybe I should give up trying to work a full time job and do a small business at the same time. My business took a dive in 2011 when my ex-husband's family started hassling my customers in the office. I've never really recovered from that.
I'm seriously thinking about giving it up.
If I keep my small business, the question becomes - if I have a small business offering personal services, do I have to stop using my true name on my social networking to thwart the stalking?
In reality, I can't do that.
The Department of Regulatory agencies requires that I use my real name and post my personal information publicly for all to see just due to my offering psychotherapy services.
I probably should throw in the towel.
As a licensed insurance agent, I am required to make my job information public. The stalkers can easily see where I work. In just a few clicks, they can look up my hours, too.
They can harass me at work.
Maybe I need to change my name, stop being a psychotherapist and take an anonymous job delivering pizza or working at an office being a receptionist somewhere.
Maybe it is my licenses that are getting me into trouble?
It's sad.
It's frustrating.
I'm really getting tired of being hacked and dealing with hang up calls from my ex-husband's family.
I thought divorce would end the problems.
It doesn't.
Rude people and stalkers just get more creative with their efforts.
I have to be more creative in my bid for safety.
I'm sure there is an answer.
If I find it, I'll post it.
Please stay safe out there.
Love ya lots,
S.
I'm getting notifications that someone is trying to change the password on my Twitter account.
I should be happy that they haven't succeeded.
This happens a lot.
The last time this happened, my account was suspended for a few days while Twitter helped straighten it out.
That's the problem with stalking....
you never know if these things are connected to the stalking craziness
or if these are random hackers trying to spam my Twitter followers.
I don't know.
In times like these, I used to find comfort in psychological research.
I'm not finding much comfort in the research pertaining to stalking.
They say that the longer stalking goes on, the harder it is to extinguish. They also say that if the ex-partner is angry or wants to hurt the victim, it can continue.
I'm going to have to get creative.
Maybe I should change my legal name?
The stalking has pretty much destroyed my business and my online networking.
Maybe it would be best to start over?
It got to the point where most of my web pages and sites were hacked.
My customers and colleagues were hassled in person.
When I ceased to work, my in-laws brought their crap to my door.
I don't know.....
In business, I have a personal brand.
I have to use my name.
I can't let other people mess with my livelihood like that.
I'm trying to brainstorm ways to protect myself.
In the past, I hired a gentleman in India to do my social networking for me. It worked fairly well. He has an IT background, so he kept everything very secure.
He'd make posts for me and answer people.
I can't afford him anymore.
Maybe I need to try.
Maybe I should give up on the idea of having a professional job until the kids are grown and I can move out of Denver?
The answer is somewhere. I just have to find it.
******
The problem I'm facing right now is my desire to get health insurance coverage on the kiddos.
My ex wasn't looking for a job when he refused to leave my home. Our kids lost their health insurance coverage. During the divorce, he negotiated a child support reduction and promised to carry insurance on the kids.
That didn't happen for very long.
What my ex refuses to do, I have to do.
It's always been that way.
As a small business owner, I couldn't afford to cover anyone.
I'm trying to get a real job (in an office with a company) so I can get health care coverage.
In the beginning, I thought it was feasible to work 40 hours at an office and twenty hours at a small business.
The temp job I have now is demanding about 50 hours a week with a varying schedule. I wind up exhausted. It's hard to see psychotherapy clients when one cannot guarantee a time slot for one's clients.
I'm thinking I'm not doing as well with the sales as I typically do. This is probably due to the lack of sleep and the issues that ever-changing hours brings into my life.
I regret turning down a job offer I had two weeks ago. A Durable Medical Equipment company wanted me to start in their sales department the day after they called.
I turned it down so I could give notice to the company I'm temping for.
Things are getting so crazy there, I think I would jump ship in a heartbeat if I was given the chance. They are asking me to work 70 hours a week. If they don't get takers, they will make the overtime mandatory.
I'm exhausted at 50 hours a week!
They're just abusing all of the temps in the same manner. I hear many of us taking calls from recruiters during our breaks.
I don't know.
I'm trying to be responsible. One can try so hard to do everything that she cannot be responsible to all of the things she has to be responsible for - when you work too hard, some things fall through the cracks.
Maybe I should give up trying to work a full time job and do a small business at the same time. My business took a dive in 2011 when my ex-husband's family started hassling my customers in the office. I've never really recovered from that.
I'm seriously thinking about giving it up.
If I keep my small business, the question becomes - if I have a small business offering personal services, do I have to stop using my true name on my social networking to thwart the stalking?
In reality, I can't do that.
The Department of Regulatory agencies requires that I use my real name and post my personal information publicly for all to see just due to my offering psychotherapy services.
I probably should throw in the towel.
As a licensed insurance agent, I am required to make my job information public. The stalkers can easily see where I work. In just a few clicks, they can look up my hours, too.
They can harass me at work.
Maybe I need to change my name, stop being a psychotherapist and take an anonymous job delivering pizza or working at an office being a receptionist somewhere.
Maybe it is my licenses that are getting me into trouble?
It's sad.
It's frustrating.
I'm really getting tired of being hacked and dealing with hang up calls from my ex-husband's family.
I thought divorce would end the problems.
It doesn't.
Rude people and stalkers just get more creative with their efforts.
I have to be more creative in my bid for safety.
I'm sure there is an answer.
If I find it, I'll post it.
Please stay safe out there.
Love ya lots,
S.