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Today I am thankful that I can just write notes.

I sell insurance to people in Hawaii.

For that reason, I usually work until midnight.  I came home on Friday and found the garage door wide open.

I thought maybe Michael had forgotten to close it.

This morning, as I lay in bed trying to catch up on my sleep, I heard Michael leave at 6:30 to take our eldest to school.  I heard the door open again just a few minutes later - I assumed it was Michael coming back to pick something up.  It closed shortly after.

Well.....Michael came back ten minutes later. 

I asked him if he forgot something and had to come back. 

He said "no."  He also claimed that he did not come back just a few minutes after leaving.

I gave up.

I retained a lawyer today. 

I can't say anything more - I just realized that my computers were hacked so lawyers couldn't communicate with me very well. 

This lawyer answered a plea I made on a forum.  He remembered meeting me in 2012 and hearing about the stalker running me out of my hypnosis practice. 

He asked if I found out who the guy was....yep.  It was my ex-husband's sister's fiancé.

That's a mouthful. 

I'm angry.

I'm hurt.

I feel like I'm going crazy and find myself doubting everything I see, think and feel. 

I can't do this anymore. 

Of course, Michael claims he has no where to go.

I'm awake at 1:00 a.m. trying to find the latest copies of the divorce decree and agreements that went missing....again.

I'm probably going to have to go back down to the courthouse to get the copies made.... again.

I am feeling incredibly manipulated and angry.

UGH!!!

Stay safe out there.

Love ya,

S. 

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