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Do Stalkers Ever Admit to Stalking

Today I am thankful....I'm not sure for what.....

I hired a lawyer. 

I paid my retainer.

I was told that I can handle it on my own. 

I can't tell you what he said I need to do........

he truly believes that I can do it on my own....

no lawyer is necessary. 

He took the retainer money because he thinks there are going to be other issues cropping up.

I basically have two choices;

restraining order

or contempt citation.

That's it.

I don't need a lawyer to fix that.


If I'm being stalked by my former in-laws, the lawyer offered to stand with me in court while I get the restraining orders. 

He's an older gentleman, who wears blue jeans and a cowboy hat.  He's fairly quiet. 

I have faith he knows what he's doing. 

He's reached out to me twice in five years. 

This is something he's seen many times before.

I trust him.

I just don't trust the information that I am receiving from my environment.

I don't know what to do.

I don't know who to believe.

Michael claims that he has no where to go.

If his family is stalking me on his behalf, can't he go live with his mother?

Michael claims that he is not behind the stalking.

My issue is that I do not know WHO exactly is behind the stalking. 

I know Michael lies to people about me and sometimes these other people attack me on his behalf.

Does that make him the stalker?

Or are the stalkers the people who attack me?

I don't know what to think.

I want to move.

I feel trapped. 

What do I do?

I'm broke now.

All my money went to a lawyer. I'll have to save up again before making my next move.

*****

It's all a major mind f*ck.

I don't know what is going on, who is doing it, why, or if it is a game designed to make me feel crazy.

I feel crazy. 

I wish the truth spells actually worked. 

They don't. 

It was trying to get him to believe they worked.

To make matters worse, I found my first wrinkle around my mouth; it's in the area where I frown.  I haven't been taking care of myself.  I haven't had sex in eons, I stopped drinking my bone broth (aka beauty tonic) or taking my vitamins.  I'm dehydrated.

I look old.

Maybe my vanity will push me to change the situation.

******

I did figure out how they were getting into my house.  I learned that the four keys that went missing were for the back door and the door leading into the garage. 

The front door has a motion sensor activated camera on it.  NO ONE has tried to break into it since the camera was installed.

The garage door seems to have a mind of its own. 

I figure they have used a rolljam device to get the codes.

I have to change all of my locks and buy a new garage door opener.

I'm furious. 

I'm tired. 

I want to be fair.  Every time I work on being fair towards Michael, some other bs happens.

I don't know what to do. 

I guess I'll meditate on it. 

The answer will come quicker than I know. 

Love ya,

S.



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