Warped Gratitude Blog

Today I am thankful that I have my sHit-List and can laugh manically.     I feel like a fool.    I feel like I did when the man I married as a teenager had a woman come looking for him on my days off when I was sick at home.  He'd beat me so he could spend the night somewhere else.  When I finally got sick of being put in the hospital I left my apartment and she immediately moved in.  For many years, I still believed him when he denied the affair.  His mistress, now wife, had to explain it to me when she was complaining about him cheating on her.     I feel like I did when my ex-husband and I were trying to gain custody of my run-away, orphan sister.  While she was living with us, she started getting bizarre phone calls all hours of the day and night.  I had a guy friend of hers try to rape me (beat the shit out of him - you know, PTSD) and tell me that if I wanted custody of her, I had to pay him for his financial losses.  The Denver Department of Human Ser

Today I am thankful for the insight that blurts out of my mouth when I'm incredibly pissed. I wish I had time to explain what happened. I guess I can.  I was trying to talk to Michael about moving out.  He decided to call a therapist and keep his promise to get help. I overheard him tell the therapist that he just wants his family to "back off" and wants to find a way to let them know this without being too forceful about it. He also told the person that there has never been a threat against my life (not true). Okay..... I want to be forceful about it.  I confronted him.  He denied saying these things.  He did something else that makes me believe he's asking his family to help harass me out of the house but I am not in a place to share that just yet.  When I confronted him and he started being rude and lying to me, I started visualizing smacking some sense into him with a two by four. That's when  I heard the following statement come ou

Today I am thankful for real adventures.     Sadly, it's the real adventures that you can't write about until enough time has passed that no one will kill you for writing about them. I had a run in with someone who wanted me to break the law.  It's a stupid law.  It's a nonsensical law.   It's still breaking the law.  Two of my colleagues were arrested for breaking this law in the past couple of years.  I found a way to skillfully maneuver around it. I found how the government created this individual's desire to elicit my services to break the law.  It's a stupid reason.  They've set the man up to fail.  Even the most skilled hypnotist cannot help someone the government has put in its sights.   Let's just say that the government engages in abusive interrogation tactics of people who violate the most innocent of laws.    A hypnotist may not be able to do anything without violating the law. An activist, on the other hand, c

Today I am thankful....at least I think I am...because I don't have to speak. Nothing makes sense in my home life. Nothing makes sense at all. I wanted to go to mediation because - I wanted to define terms of repayment for the $10,000 Mike took after the divorce, - to get my name off of the title of the van he needed after our divorce, - to get my name off of the checking account he was supposed to turn over to me but continues to use, - to define when and how he will move out of the house, - to discuss if he wants to sign a Quit Claim Deed or allow me to move out of the house and sell it, - to discuss child support and any changes that need to be made to the parenting agreement, - to redistribute the tax credits (he has them all but is not working), and - to discuss alimony. The deadline to discuss alimony and enter into an agreement was today. I did have a lawyer willing to help me last September but then Michael lost his job.  I put off that issue unti

Today I am thankful for mediation. My ex had a job interview today. Hooray!  It was a first interview, so I don't know how it went for him. My deadline to file a court case for modification is Friday.  I need to do it today if possible. I mentioned this to my ex. I told him that I'd like him to come to an agreement about moving out. He seems shocked. I don't know why he'd be shocked. He also said that he would only help with the kids if he lived here.  Um....no.  He has 50% custody, he'll get his chance to parent.  He doesn't have to live with me to do that. He says that he's here to help me.  I asked him how he's helping me and didn't get a straight answer. So..... He's promising to go to court to file a motion to increase the amount of time I have to ask for alimony. I can't do that.  It's been two years. I told him that I'd like to know when he's going to move out, get permission to move of the ci

Today I am thankful for my social media manager; he may have found a way to prove who my stalker is.       I hired a man from Pakistan to be my social media manager.  He's in the process of rebuilding my neglected social media pages.  He's accepting the reviews so they can be shown to the public.  He's posting my content and dealing with the crap so I don't have to look at it anymore.   We had a little disagreement.  I want to use my business name to thwart the stalking.  He thinks that I need to use my real name.    He argues that I am a public figure.  People will search me out using my name.    Using my name brings out the stalker!   Well.....he showed me that the stalker is already making himself known.    All I had to do was go to Facebook and search myself.    It appears that a Libertarian Party affiliate published some of my articles in their newsletters after I left the party due to their mistreatment of a self-proclaimed Pagan