Warped Gratitude Blog

Today I am thankful for the lessons learned as a stalking victim.  Apparently, people who know me fear that Dennis "The Menace" is going to kill me should I venture outside to try to find evidence that someone is setting fires at Cherry Creek State Park. They base this upon a Facebook post. What's he going to do? Set the witch on fire? Note: I'm a descendant of the witches that didn't burn. Oh boy, this is starting to get stupid. I've dealt with more dangerous dolts that this guy.  If I were in danger, it would have been when I was ignoring the drug dealers at Civic Center Park while trying to get a guy to consider treatment. The worst thing that happened was that a woman called me a "stupid bitch."  She shut up quickly as she was sitting by a guy who just got a new set of sneakers that I bought fo him. Take care of people and they'll take care of you. That was just a few days ago. **** Hell, I have more of a chance o...

Today I am thankful for ideas that spring from circumstances. Now, I'm going to qualify with the following - Homeless sweeps do more harm than good. This bitchy witchy believes that there is a special place in Hades for the politicians who recommend them.  Typically those politicians are the ones who raise taxes to fund public-private partnerships promising to help homeless people but the help is not forthcoming. This is an idea born from a joint homeless sweep conducted by the Cities of Denver and Englewood. There is an old woman - homeless and living in her RV - who planted food for herself and others to eat - the Denver police decimated her garden and stole her property. My understanding is that she still has her RV (but no money for gasoline). I don't know this woman or I'd send her some gas money. I was told of her story and realized just how I can honor my religion while helping these people. I'd like to buy several acres of property ...

(I've gotta stop stroking the egos of horrible politicians).  Today I am thankful that I can remember my dreams.... well, maybe not. They're getting quite weird. So, last night I dreamt that I was hanging out with Colorado's governor, Polis. In this dream, I was really feeling sorry for him.  I was trying to help him understand that the Constitution cannot be suspended due to a virus and that there is no way to know for sure that the information he's getting from the CDC is accurate. In this dream, I could literally feel his fear that people were going to die in droves if he re-opened the economy.  I could feel that he was experiencing guilt just by thinking of all the people he truly believed were going to die. In the dream, I remember telling him to just think about all the people being saved by having the a ability to get preventative care. ***** Then the dream became bizarre. Polis was on a stage, making weird gestures with his mouth. Th...

Today I am thankful for anger. I lost my fourth former patient to an overdose since Governor Polis shut down the state and instituted policies which halve the number of beds available in rehabilitation centers. I lost a high school chum this morning due to an untreated health issue. A little over a month ago, I lost my aunt due to a hospital discharging her early to make room for covid-19 patients.  These patients never arrived to clog the hospital system. My anger is mounting. To keep things fair, in all my networking, I have met countless people who have tested negative for Covid19. I only know of one person who tested positive.  She is an RN who is a friend of a friend.  I never met her.  I asked about her and learned that she was working more hours than usual due to the shut down. That appears to be part of the problem: some people are overworked while a vast majority of people cannot keep busy. So....I wish the CDC kept track of people who died d...

Today I am thankful for political assholes.  I know.... I know..... It's a dumb thing to be thankful for. Assholes inspire anger. Anger inspires action. I'm starting to get a little bit pissed off. The more people that relapse due to the shut down of the AA, NA and other 12-step meetings, the more death I see .... the angrier I become. I'm starting to wrinkle. I've got a tiny wrinkle in between my eyebrows and I swear my smirk wrinkle is coming back. When I'm at peace, the wrinkles go away. When I'm so upset that I feel the need to take action, my shadow side can put people in a world of hurt. I'm trying to be good, I really am. I don't think I'm going to hold out much longer. ****** I went to a rally today. It is the same rally at the state Capital I've gone to each and every week since our idiotic governor shut down the economy. I wear a mask only because I promised my boss I would wear a mask in public....

Today I am thankful for documentation. About 5:00pm, my children stated that they received a text message from their father stating that visitation had changed from Friday evening to all day Sunday. Um..... No. I tried to get him to mediate visitation.  I spent $20,000 on legal fees. He did not want to change visitation during our court hearing in November. Alrighty then,,,, I know the game. Get the custodial parent to believe visitation takes place on Sunday and then show up on Friday (according to the court order). If the kids aren't ready, then you sue her for visitation interference. It's just better to follow the court order. Besides - we have church. No. I'm paying $365 per month to pay off those legal fees. I guess I'll have to get yet another loan. Ugh... My ex claims that it is because RTD furloughed him. RTD is bragging about not having to furlough or lay off their employees. I wonder what pissed my ex off? I'd bet tha...

Today I am thankful to be overworked. In spite of the death of a close relative who we can't bury or have a service for due to the overreaction to Covid19, I'm happy to still have a job. It pays very little. I just took the job to get hours so I can sit for a licensure exam. I have enough hours now. The aunt who tried to rescue me out of foster care died a couple of weeks ago.  She fell. Kaiser Permanente was so intent on saving hospital beds for Covid19 victims, they released her from the hospital early.  They REFUSED to provide skilled nursing care (in violation of the Denver City Employee Evidence of Coverage for her plan) and a licensed social worker tried to intimidate another untrained elderly relative into providing the nursing care. I warned Kaiser that I would report the social worker to DORA. My aunt died the next day. The Coroner was so pissed off, he had a victim's advocate report everyone. I'm trying to convince her Medial Power of Att...