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My First Friday Night Alone with My First Love (and a lesson to share)

 

(one of my favorite bass lines) 


Today I'm thankful that I have my very first Friday night free in many years.  I chose to spend it with my first love - bass guitars.. 

Someone stepped on my Arcadia CD. 

My kids must have gotten sick of listening to it. 

I had nothing to listen to (without YouTube Ads).  I wore out that cassette years ago.  

I resemble Lady Ice. 

Maybe I wasn't always that way.....

Man - 

I had to dig out my old music

I listened to an old '80s mixtape.  There was a lot of Jeffrey Osborne on it, some Luther Vandross, a bit of Klymaxx, Alexander O'Neal, Chaka Khan, and Rufus, Freddie Jackson, Prince....sigh.....

Oh my.....

no wonder I scared off the 80's boyfriend. 

I probably scorched the poor guy. 

Maybe that's what the nightmares are about....guilt over being a pervert and condemning a nice Christian boy to his nightmarish version of the underworld in the afterlife.  

I don't know. 

If I knew, the nightmares would stop. 

*****

As a single mom, I work too much.  

Now, I have a job with normal-ish hours and a livable wage, most of my weekends are free.   

If I could walk, I'd spend Friday nights at the local art fair - but 

I cannot. 

So, I stayed home and busied myself the only way I knew how. 

At some point in the evening, I decided to work out because when I don't exercise I feel blah....

Now, I don't feel blah - I feel like the doctors were right when they diagnosed me with fibromyalgia back in '98. 

I'm writing for a purpose - 

DON'T WORK OUT YOUR LEGS WITH A FRACTURED ANKLE. 

Stay off the elliptical, don't mess with the home gym and, for the love of your Diety, stay off of the Hallway Horse (don't know what it's really called but one of the guys at the city called it a "hallway horse" but I think it is some sort of a cross-trainer that works the abs, arms, and legs...I got it one year for Christmas way back in the 90's when my sister was making fun of my weight). 



At least I knew to stay off of my exercise bike - lol! 

Between that and slappin' Charlie - my right wrist and elbow hurt.  So do both of my knees and my swollen ankle. 

It's Ibuprofen city for me today. 

(Maybe I've gotta work on that slappin' technique or stay off the Hallway Horse....never hurt like this before....hmmmm) 

The kids want me to take them hiking up in the hills for the next three days. 

This is gonna get interesting. 

Um - if you see a chunky redheaded lady hanging out in the parking lot of a Colorado National Park wearing a brace on her left leg...

 by herself.....

 listening to old school R&B,,,,

say hello. 

I bet she'll answer to Siegfred. 


Love ya, 

S. 


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